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 <h1>candys journal</h1>
 <h2>basically the "hidden" vent section ive seen the webtracker nobody looks at this page</h2>
 
+<details>
+	<summary>2024-11-18</summary>
+	<p>how do you human without hurting people<br>
+	how do you even<br>
+	stabs of<br>
+	how do you<br>
+	its always either nothing or everything<br>
+	inert lack of doing fucking anything<br>
+	or trying so hard i fuck everything up every single fucking<br>
+	this is the worst i cant i cant i cantt<br>
+	i just<br>
+	jfeff im sorry im sorry im sorry<br>
+	why cant i<br>
+	i just want to<br>
+	i need to<br>
+	how do you<br>
+	im sorry im so sorry i<br>
+	th<br>
+	i cANT EVER<br>
+	FRIENDS ARE IMPOSSIBLE<br>
+	ITS ALWAYS EITHER NOTHING HAPPENS<br>
+	OR I PUSH TOO HARD AND SHATTER EVERY CHANCE EVER<br>
+	th<br>
+	im sorry im<br>
+	its not<br>
+	the<br>
+	im scared<br>
+	im scared im just an asshole who just<br>
+	god im sorry<br>
+	i just<br>
+	i just<br>
+	wanted<br>
+	to be<br>
+	included<br>
+	i just<br>
+	i know youll probably never read this<br>
+	but<br>
+	but the truth is<br>
+	i really find your work inspiring<br>
+	and like all the converging story stuff<br>
+	and i wanted to do that stuff too<br>
+	and im sorry<br>
+	and i know youll never read this ever<br>
+	you probably dont know this stupid site even exists<br>
+	and you probably just see me as some asswipe who<br>
+	cant listen to a god damn single thing<br>
+	and follow evven the most basic of social boundaries<br>
+	and maybe i am<br>
+	and maybe you never want to see me again<br>
+	but im sorry<br>
+	im sorry<br>
+	im sorryyy</p>
+</details>
 
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 	<h2>2024-11-16</h2>