2024-08-11
-feeling very aimless again - like just going through the motions again - and again - college will be hell but it hasnt started yet so who knows - wish i could just be content +
feeling very aimless again
+ like just going through the motions again
+ and again
+ college will be hell but it hasnt started yet so who knows
+ wish i could just be content
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+ 16:00 update GOD DAMNIT
+ can i EVER exist in a public space without
+ being anti social or making everything worse for myself?!
- 16:00 update GOD DAMNIT
- can i EVER exist in a public space without
- being anti social or making everything worse for myself?!
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- i really really dont unerstand the forum posting rules
- and i keep ruining everything he probably hates me now
- god i keep fricking everything up and the forum is going to
- shut down in like 2 hours which is even worse because now
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+ i really really dont unerstand the forum posting rules
+ and i keep ruining everything he probably hates me now
+ god i keep fricking everything up and the forum is going to
+ shut down in like 2 hours which is even worse because now
i cant even like "prove myself" at all and have to worry about
- it the entire day tomorrow why do i make things so much worse
- for everyone around me why do i keep trying to do this
+ it the entire day tomorrow why do i make things so much worse
+ for everyone around me why do i keep trying to do this