+ 2024-12-26
+ (12:45)
+ well i woke up to it hailing
+ thats fun
+ (17:27)
+ well moosky is doing a 3d anim of my chars so thats realy cool :D
+ (20:33)
+ me and moosky spent like 3 hours fleshing out our chars lore :D
+ hes so cool!! ^^
+ (21:11)
+ i got a polaroid for the second night which is pretty cool
+ idk what to use it for tho
+ (23:45)
+ wait i forgot to push yesterdays entry didnt i???
+ dang it ill do it when i make tomorrows comic page..
+ (00:10)
+ goddang it my brother woke me up and made me
+ clean up dog pee i really dont like our dogs
+ (00:44)
+ my sleep schedule noooo
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+ 2024-12-25
+ (9:42)
+ who knew going to bed earlier made you feel better
+ anyways christmas!!! i havent gotten my present yet but
+ its probably good!
+ (14:04)
+ well i got a headphones and a stress toy thingy
+ we still have 7 more nights to go tho so im excited
+ also the "9th day gift" of sending the appeal which
+ ill finally be free of this guilt ive felt over the last month
+ i really really really hope they accept it
+ and now my parents are going out again which again kinda sucs,,
+ (15:56)
+ i spent the last hour debugging those headphones
+ turns out the cable wasnt plugged in fully
+ yipeeeeeeeee
+ (16:29)
+ god i hope im not past being able to be forgiven by them
+ (17:40)
+ wel;l bench made a server 2 weeks ago
+ they said no for NOW but t thats also like maybe a way to maybe
+ show people that ive changed and stuff and that im worthy of
+ maybe getting another chance im SORRY im SORRY IM SORRY
+ (18:02)
+ i really hope i can get like in a friendgroup in this community
+ or something idk i wish i had like more interaction and like
+ a group to bounce stories off in our blogs or something but
+ it feels so impossible and asking the people who do have it
+ just leads to hurting them i just want to be like i just want
+ to matter to like a group or something and be part of a group
+ and stuff i dont knowwwwww
+ am i doing this right?? am i just never going to get there?
+ forcing it doesnt work but waiting feels like just giving up
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+ but if i really want this i have to be patient and NOT force it
+ just stay calm and actually really respect people and ill
+ maybe get the chance to do collab stuff maybe after enough time
+ i hope
+ (18:44)
+ i really hope they are still willing to accept me i really do
+ (19:17)
+ why are social interactions so hard aaaaaa
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