From 94a41b80ef31f6ab18b047ddcffb70640d8f2503 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001
From: etherware-novice <73374039+etherware-novice@users.noreply.github.com>
Date: Tue, 12 Nov 2024 23:06:32 -0600
Subject: [PATCH] jrn

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 <h1>candys journal</h1>
 <h2>basically the "hidden" vent section ive seen the webtracker nobody looks at this page</h2>
 
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+<article>
+	<h2>2024-11-13</h2>
+	<p>creativity, spontaneousness, and sandboxes (why i suck at all of it)<br>
+	i always have an issue with sandboxes, and that's this<br>
+	I NEED SOME KIND OF DIRECTION.<br>
+	like, the "fear of the blank canvas" also applies to sandbox<br>
+	games and a little bit webdevelopment?<br>
+	like i cant just DO something i have to have an idea first and<br>
+	some kinda plan and its also really hard i feel like to make<br>
+	something i actually connect with in these and seeing how<br>
+	effortlessly other people can just do stuff is frustrating<br>
+	and makes me want to play them even less and it just repeats<br>
+	same with something like the everyone site on melonland, i feel<br>
+	like i have to make something of value but cant<br>
+	i know its the self confidence piece it always is i just cant<br>
+	do a leap of faith and try to make something silly im sorry</p>
+</article>
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 <article>
 	<h2>2024-11-12</h2>
 	<p>Did you know that often, "deleting" something<br>