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From: etherware-novice <73374039+etherware-novice@users.noreply.github.com>
Date: Sat, 30 Nov 2024 00:26:24 -0600
Subject: [PATCH] post travel journal
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basically the "hidden" vent section ive seen the webtracker nobody looks at this page
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+ 2024-11-30
+ I feel like I should write something less intense after that
+ so I guess I'll double dip and talk about the trip..
+ Honestly, it was pretty short. We didn't get to do too much..
+ It was planned out so that we avoided the massive rush of
+ Monday and Sunday, instead choosing the day before and after
+ Thanksgiving to take advantage of the lower yield. Pretty clever,
+ but again it didn't leave much time to hang out with family.
+ I did get to play tennis though, which was fun until my
+ cousin chased and hit me with a racket repeatedly.
+ Also, we watched some movies. My mom hates The princess Bride
+ for some reason, but my uncles were clever and put it on
+ before we came to the house so I got to watch some :)
+ The cooking was fantastic, a lot of my family are really good
+ chefs, and I'm sad we couldn't take most of it on the plane.
+ Also, we tried to do some black friday shopping but ended up
+ not really buying a lot. Overall, pretty alright trip.
+
+
+
+ 2024-11-30/apology
+ Today's only the 30th by technicality, it
+ just hit midnight 5 minutes ago. Still, I'm leaving it
+ because it looks nicer.
+
+ So.
+ I fucked up bad with that group.
+ I'm writing my apology here in the extremely rare chance that
+ one of them happens to check my site.
+ Also, I've had some time to think about it, both literally
+ being banned indefinitely and having very little computer
+ access until just now because of thanksgiving travel.
+ Maybe writing out an actual apology will help some,
+ even if they never end up seeing it.
+ godamnit im stalling
+
+ Bench, I'm sorry for continuing to beg for help and
+ not understanding the boundaries you set. I was getting
+ too emotional and scared about the new stuff, but I shouldn't
+ have expected you to hold my hand through it. I'll continue
+ to try writing and maybe it'll go somewhere. I just need to
+ give it time and stop letting my anxiety about it force me
+ to push boundaries too hard. I'm sorry for mistreating you,
+ and if you ever do end up letting me back I promise I will
+ be a better person and actively push myself to not repeat it
+ again. I'm sorry.
+
+ Allistor, I'm sorry for the message spam after what happened
+ Again, I was too emotional, but I should've just stepped back
+ and not done it.
+
+ To everyone else, I promise I will try to change and be a less
+ annoying person who pushes too hard sometimes.
+
+
2024-11-27
it got worse