vault backup: 2025-11-09 12:34:50

.obsidian/community-plugins.json

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.obsidian/plugins/obsidian-git/data.json

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-{
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-  "showFileMenu": true,
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-  "diffStyle": "split",
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-    "followMovement": "inactive",
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     "fundingUrl": "https://ko-fi.com/vinzent",
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+    padding-top: 0;
+    padding-right: 0;
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+    display: flex;
+    flex-direction: column;
+    position: relative;
+    height: 100%;
+}
+
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     margin-left: auto;
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+.workspace-leaf-content[data-type="git-view"] .tree-item-self,
+.workspace-leaf-content[data-type="git-history-view"] .tree-item-self {
+    align-items: center;
+}
+
+.workspace-leaf-content[data-type="git-view"]
+    .tree-item-self:hover
+    .clickable-icon,
+.workspace-leaf-content[data-type="git-history-view"]
+    .tree-item-self:hover
+    .clickable-icon {
+    color: var(--icon-color-hover);
+}
+
+/* Highlight an item as active if it's diff is currently opened */
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+            "type": "leaf",
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+              "icon": "git-pull-request",
+              "title": "Source Control"
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content/week-notes/035.md

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+---
+title: just some other shit i've been dealing with (WN 35)
+date: 2025-11-02
+tags:
+  - week-notes
+draft: false
+url: week-notes/35
+summary: "week notes more like month notes am i right"
+---
+This is an amalgamation of whatever I can remember over the last few weeks. I am almost certainly missing things, but I'm trying to reset and start up again.
+## Doing
+Lately I really just feel like shit. I've had a cough for going on a week and a half. According to urgent care, it's a post-viral lingering cough. I don't remember having something viral, but, well, teaching middle school means I'm exposed to all kinds of nasty shit. I'm glad to not have any other symptoms, but the cough has kept me up at night and indirectly given me a sore throat. And then, mentally, I'm going through phases. There are days where I feel totally blank, empty, detached — and then days where I feel so stressed, so angry, and completely unable to do anything about it. I took on teaching a college class this semester because I stepped back from some commitments at my full-time job and because I am at a place where I basically have my entire curriculum set for the year. Unfortunately, I am never satisfied and am constantly rebuilding and reworking entire units, and I have an incredibly challenging group this year in terms of behaviors. I feel like my heart just isn't in it this year — or, it is, but it's being beaten out every day by the horseshit I'm dealing with. I'm drowning in grading (especially for the college class — I'm *weeks* behind). I stay for hours after school and it feels like I hardly make a dent. I keep telling myself that things will get better, but it's hard to see that light at the end of the tunnel.
+
+I have gone deeper into the world of fountain pens. I bought a LAMY Safari and Pilot Kakuno, both in extra fine; I like both but prefer the Kakuno (as it's slightly thinner). I also bought a converter for my Preppy, but I don't think I'm using it right — I feel like I'm hardly pulling any ink. I might just try refilling cartridges with a syringe. I will repeat my call for any fountain pen sickos reading this to please give me guidance.
+
+## Reading
+I finished *Accountable* by Dashka Slater because the deadline was up for the book group I joined. I enjoyed reading and discussing it, and it's upsetting how relevant it is to my school and experiences with today's students. The events at Albany are in no way an anomaly. I wish perhaps that the book offered solutions, but that's also naive of me — there are no easy answers to dismantling the effects of systemic racism and the dehumanizing vitriol teens encounter online.
+
+I've read maybe ten pages in *Villette* in the last few weeks. I am really enjoying it and want to read on, but it's been impossible to find the time and energy for it.
+
+## Watching
+I'm still watching *Weeds*; I'm practically done with it now. The later seasons aren't as bad as I remember, but they have nothing on the Agrestic seasons. They not *good*, but they're watchable, and that's enough for me right now.
+
+Joe and I watched *Survivor 42* and are in the middle of *46* as part of our prep for *Survivor 50*. I liked *42* more than I expected (Dreya is Queen); *46* is a rewatch for me, but a good one — I love a season with goofy chaos like this.
+
+Joe and I also spent Halloween re-watching *Fellowship of the Ring*, though we both fell asleep somewhere around the Council of Elrond.
+
+## Playing
+I've played a few more hours of *Final Fantasy Tactics* over the last few weeks. I'm still positive on it, but I'm missing the diversity of *Tactics Advance* — I liked having the different races in my clan, but *Tactics* seems limited to just humans.
+
+## Listening
+I listened to *Sound & Color* by Alabama Shakes on a friend's recommendation. Surprisingly, I was able to place "This Feeling" from hearing it on *Fleabag*; otherwise, I found the album a little too coffee shop jam band to care much about it. I liked "Drive By Baby," though.
+
+The re-release of Mac Miller's *GO:OD AM* dropped for real this time, so I listened to those three bonus tracks. I'd been listening to the leaked version of "Carpe Diem" for years at this point, so I'm glad to at last have that out officially. It's a goofy song that I have a lot of affection for, and I don't think it (or the other two bonus tracks, which I think are bad) really fit tacked onto the end of *GO:OD AM* — the album has such an intentional build and ending, and then it's surprise! Here are two songs that probably didn't need to be released and one that could have been on a leaks EP or something. 
+
+There was a time in my life when I was listening to all the Mac leaks and keeping up as more dropped, but nowadays, I've deleted all of them save for a few I really care about. Part of that has been enabled by the family [releasing official versions of some that I do really like, of course](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dS7rnvWOJrE). I suppose I'm just holding on in hopes that the five or so[^1] that I hang onto drop officially. This is unlikely, however, because one of them was on the leaked *Balloonerism* but didn't make it to the official release. There's also "The Sun Room" (which eventually just became "The Star Room"), which probably would have been included on the re-release of *WMWTSO* if it was going to be anywhere. Consider this my requiem for an official drop of "Pure," I guess, and then I can move on with my life.
+
+[^1]: I'd give links to them but they pop up and then get copyright striked pretty quickly — and also they're inherently controversial. Clearly I have some mixed feelings on them.

content/week-notes/036.md

@@ -0,0 +1,50 @@
+---
+title: no more conversations about what breakfast club character you'd be (WN 36)
+date: 2025-11-09
+tags:
+  - week-notes
+draft: true
+---
+## Doing
+I'm sick *again* (still?). As I wrote last week, I've had a lingering cough for going on two weeks. I visited urgent care and received a non-specific diagnosis, but they gave me an inhaler and said to come back if I wasn't better in a week or two. On Wednesday or Thursday, I came down with a regular cold. It's manageable, and I'm hoping it knocks whatever the cough was out of my system, but it feels like I can't catch a break. Joe has been sick too, so we've been barely making it by; the house is messy and there are a lot of  projects that I'd like to get to, but neither of us have felt up it.
+
+I've also been drowning in work. Last weekend and early this week, I finally caught up on grading for my middle schoolers and filed report cards. I'm at last in a good place there, but I have a *ton* of grading to catch up on for my college course now. That grading luckily goes pretty quick — I only have eleven students in the class — but it's been weighing on the back of my mind anytime I have a free moment. We are winding down with the class now — we only have I think four more sessions — and I'm thinking a lot about whether I would teach it again. It's only offered in the fall, so I have time to think about it, but it's hard to say what my life is going to look like a year from now. I have enjoyed teaching the class and working with older students, but it's also an added workload that I just don't need. The extra money is nice, but I'm not sure it's worth the time and energy I'm putting in.
+
+My birthday is coming up next week and Joe asked if there was anything I'd like to do. I had a big party last year to celebrate turning 30 and had a really nice time[^2], but 31 doesn't feel like such a big deal.
+
+On a meta-level, I had some weirdness with this site deploying; right now, everything is on 32bitcafe's Gitea instance, which then mirrors to a Github repo. That Github repo is attached to Cloudflare Pages, which builds, deploys, and serves the website for me.
+
+## Reading
+I've read a bit more of *Villette* this week. It's still quite slow-going — I maybe only read fifteen pages — but it's not a thrilling, plot-heavy book, so it almost feels like small weekly check-ins on Lucy Snowe. I'd like to develop the habit of reading a few pages while I eat my breakfast in the morning and then a few more before I go to bed. The former is doable, but with the latter, I usually nod off too quickly for it to really be worthwhile.
+
+## Watching
+I finished off *Weeds* and moved on to rewatching *Orange is the New Black*. I really loved the first two seasons of *OitNB* when they first came out (and I think I intend to only rewatch them, as I didn't like the prison riot turn or what happened after that). I'm enjoying it on the rewatch, but I'm not as taken with it as I was back then. I think it felt really revolutionary and fresh at the time, but ten plus years on, it doesn't feel like such a big thing to have queer women and women of color on the screen. I'm happy for that, of course! I'm still early in season one, so I haven't gotten to any of the big storytelling swings and maybe my opinion will change then. I also remember a lot more of the jokes than I expected, so there's a bit less novelty this time around, too.
+
+## Playing
+I started *Pokémon Legends ZA* using the virtual game card borrowing from Joe's system. I'm tepid on it; it's definitely miles ahead of *Scarlet* and *Violet*, which I thought had some good ideas but was executed so poorly that it turned me off of Pokémon, I think, in a pretty big way. But I loved *Legends Arceus* so, so much and I'm disappointed that this game isn't hitting the same notes for me. Brendon Bigley wrote a bit about going into *ZA* after loving *Arceus*:
+
+> Having now spent around 15 hours running around Pokémon’s version of Paris, I’m starting to better understand what makes a Legends game in comparison to the mainline entries: It’s not an exploration of the history of the pokémon world, it’s an exploration of a specific time and place in the Pokémon world. A fulcrum point in their society.
+
+I suppose then that maybe the issue isn't the game itself but rather my hopes and expectations for it. But *Arceus* had such a strong, refreshing vibe that *ZA* so far hasn't surfaced for me. There's some vague techno-futurism, but it's otherwise just a (lovingly realized, detailed, well-executed — words I can't use to describe any other recent Pokémon games) city in the Pokémon universe. We'll see if it eventually sinks its claws into me.
+
+## Listening
+I listened through to *Infra* by Max Richter for the first time in probably close to ten years. This album was once the background when I'd write (mostly Star Wars fanfiction). I was looking for something low-key to have on while grading, but I found a sense memory in it and added to my vault of unpublishable personal writing.[^1]
+
+Here's my top ten songs from the week (based somewhat on plays, with edits):
+
+1. "Moody Orange" by Rainbow Kitten Surprise
+2. "Infra 5" by Max Richter
+3. "Cold Love" by Rainbow Kitten Surprise
+4. "The Sea is a Good Place to Think of the Future" by Los Campesinos!
+5. "Bubble in My Bloodstream" by Martha
+6. "Love Machine" by Being Dead
+7. "Pure Particles" by The Bug Club
+8. "Tenuousness" by Andrew Bird
+9. "Breakin' the Law" by The New Pornographers
+10. "We Are All Accelerated Readers" by Los Campesinos!
+
+I'm listening to Rainbow Kitten Surprise's new album (*bones*) at the time of writing, but I want to sit with it longer before typing up any thoughts.
+
+[^1]: this is becoming a running joke for me on my shitty little blog. to be clear, I think often about publishing on this blog the more creative (mostly creative non-fiction) writing that I do instead of banal accountings of everything I did and watched and played and listened to each week, but sharing my writing — especially publicly — is perhaps my primary phobia
+
+[^2]: this was the first birthday party I'd ever had