From 917425ee7b602da6cb92778a8994a0fb382e652d Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001
From: cassie <me@cassie.ink>
Date: Sun, 5 Oct 2025 21:42:10 -0400
Subject: [PATCH] vault backup: 2025-10-05 21:42:10

---
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 .obsidian/workspace.json          |  31 +++---
 content/week-notes/032.md         |   1 +
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 public/week-notes/33/index.html   | 175 ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
 public/week-notes/34/index.html   | 175 ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
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 14 files changed, 547 insertions(+), 40 deletions(-)
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index 34b6c0c..568db26 100644
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+++ b/.obsidian/core-plugins.json
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@@ -26,8 +27,7 @@
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 }
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index 1a4498b..b8acda4 100644
--- a/.obsidian/workspace.json
+++ b/.obsidian/workspace.json
@@ -4,22 +4,22 @@
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-    "content/posts/2024-02-04 Media Log (January 2024).md"
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diff --git a/content/week-notes/032.md b/content/week-notes/032.md
index 9456b07..4c3c00e 100644
--- a/content/week-notes/032.md
+++ b/content/week-notes/032.md
@@ -5,6 +5,7 @@ tags:
   - week-notes
 draft: false
 cover: https://cdn.cassie.ink/images/2025/wn/32.jpg
+url: week-notes/32
 ---
 ## Doing
 This was the first full week of school, so naturally that consumed most of my time. Things are going well enough so far; I have one class that's really challenging, but the rest are smooth sailing.
diff --git a/public/about/index.html b/public/about/index.html
index 64e82ae..aeb15ad 100644
--- a/public/about/index.html
+++ b/public/about/index.html
@@ -35,7 +35,7 @@ this site is currently built using hugo. I edit my posts in Obsidian (with the h
   <nav>
     <ul>
     <li>
-      <a href="/about/">About</a>
+      <a aria-current="page" class="active" href="/about/">About</a>
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     <li>
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diff --git a/public/index.html b/public/index.html
index 2c42e3b..f1e538f 100644
--- a/public/index.html
+++ b/public/index.html
@@ -55,9 +55,9 @@
       <time>
         14 September 2025
       </time>
-      <h2><a href="/week-notes/032/">don’t you know that I’m crazy for you? (WN32)</a></h2>
+      <h2><a href="/week-notes/32/">don’t you know that I’m crazy for you? (WN32)</a></h2>
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@@ -67,7 +67,7 @@
 <p>I saw an optometrist for the first time in my life this week; I noticed last year that I was having trouble seeing the board at the front of my classroom toward the end of the day. I thought it might just be fatigue, but Joe encouraged me to make an appointment even so considering I&rsquo;ve never been. Apparently I have crossed a new threshold of old age and now need readers. I&rsquo;ve insisted for years that I want glasses, that I feel they suit my face and personality, but the moment the doctor asked me &ldquo;Do you want someone to help you pick out glasses today?&rdquo; I was immediately confronted with my hubris and regretted all previous comments. The pair I ordered haven&rsquo;t come in yet, so expect a further meltdown next week.</p>
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index 1504699..b4c5fc3 100644
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       <description>&lt;h2 id=&#34;doing&#34;&gt;Doing&lt;/h2&gt;&#xA;&lt;p&gt;This was the first full week of school, so naturally that consumed most of my time. Things are going well enough so far; I have one class that&amp;rsquo;s really challenging, but the rest are smooth sailing.&lt;/p&gt;&#xA;&lt;p&gt;I saw an optometrist for the first time in my life this week; I noticed last year that I was having trouble seeing the board at the front of my classroom toward the end of the day. I thought it might just be fatigue, but Joe encouraged me to make an appointment even so considering I&amp;rsquo;ve never been. Apparently I have crossed a new threshold of old age and now need readers. I&amp;rsquo;ve insisted for years that I want glasses, that I feel they suit my face and personality, but the moment the doctor asked me &amp;ldquo;Do you want someone to help you pick out glasses today?&amp;rdquo; I was immediately confronted with my hubris and regretted all previous comments. The pair I ordered haven&amp;rsquo;t come in yet, so expect a further meltdown next week.&lt;/p&gt;&#xA;&lt;p&gt;On the computer nerd front, I&amp;rsquo;m trying out &lt;a href=&#34;https://www.getmailspring.com/&#34;&gt;Mailspring&lt;/a&gt; in lieu of Thunderbird (which is great, but the interface is clunky and ugly and I am a fundamentally vain person), and I subscribed to &lt;a href=&#34;https://obsidian.md/sync&#34;&gt;Obsidian Sync&lt;/a&gt; for my vaults with work notes and my (non-blog, creative, unpublishable) writing. Obsidian offers a remarkably generous educator discount (40%). I&amp;rsquo;ve also taken my first foray into Soulseek, for which I&amp;rsquo;m about thirty years late to the party.&lt;/p&gt;&#xA;&lt;p&gt;Joe and I had a long conversation this week about some serious shit that isn&amp;rsquo;t really appropriate to write about my little fucking blog, but the bit I do feel comfortable sharing here is my lifelong obsession with death and dying — not in a macabre true crime bullshit way, but in a perhaps obsessive and compulsive anxiety about my impending death and the ones of those I love. He has encouraged therapy; I said I would consider it for his sake. I believe he then encouraged me to also work on my lack of self-worth in therapy, too.&lt;/p&gt;&#xA;&lt;p&gt;My volleyball rec league started back up, so I now have that and my Sunday morning runs as regular routines. I&amp;rsquo;m running a 5K in early November and feel more than prepared, endurance-wise (the Sunday runs are five to six miles), but I&amp;rsquo;d really like to push myself to improve on speed before it rolls around.&lt;/p&gt;&#xA;&lt;h2 id=&#34;reading&#34;&gt;Reading&lt;/h2&gt;&#xA;&lt;p&gt;I finished &lt;em&gt;All Boys Aren&amp;rsquo;t Blue&lt;/em&gt; by George M. Johnson at last. I think I need a break from young adult literature for a while — &lt;em&gt;Perdido Street Station&lt;/em&gt; was next on my list, but a student teased me about never having finished &lt;em&gt;Villette&lt;/em&gt;, so I&amp;rsquo;m tempted to give it another shot.&lt;/p&gt;&#xA;&lt;h2 id=&#34;watching&#34;&gt;Watching&lt;/h2&gt;&#xA;&lt;p&gt;I&amp;rsquo;ve kept on with &lt;em&gt;Downton Abbey&lt;/em&gt; on and off; it&amp;rsquo;s become my folding laundry show. I&amp;rsquo;m now almost finished with the last season. It&amp;rsquo;s remained entertaining, though I wouldn&amp;rsquo;t consider any of it &lt;em&gt;good&lt;/em&gt; in an objective sense beyond the first season. I think there are a few storylines that are completely misguided and borderline intolerable (Bates and Anna, mostly, and Prince Kuragin), but I haven&amp;rsquo;t been compelled to &lt;em&gt;stop watching&lt;/em&gt;, which indicates something — if only my low standards for what I consume whilst folding underwear.&lt;/p&gt;&#xA;&lt;h2 id=&#34;listening&#34;&gt;Listening&lt;/h2&gt;&#xA;&lt;p&gt;Plex had a data breach that meant I had to change my password and do some reauthentication that I didn&amp;rsquo;t get around to until the weekend, so I streamed a lot of music off the Bandcamp app when away from home — primarily &lt;em&gt;EELS&lt;/em&gt; by Being Dead, which I &lt;a href=&#34;https://cassie.ink/week-notes/025/&#34;&gt;first mentioned back in July&lt;/a&gt; and remain a great fan of.&lt;/p&gt;&#xA;&lt;p&gt;A student of mine recommended that I listen to Tyler, The Creator, which I now feel obligated to do, though I think I know what the end result will be. He gave me three albums, and I think I&amp;rsquo;m going to start with &lt;em&gt;CALL ME IF YOU GET LOST&lt;/em&gt;. More to come on that.&lt;/p&gt;&#xA;&lt;p&gt;I also ripped a better quality version of &lt;em&gt;&amp;hellip; A Better View of the Rising Moon&lt;/em&gt; by 1997, an album I really liked when I was 12, so I&amp;rsquo;m listening through that for the first time in probably over a decade. No detailed thoughts at the moment, and any that I could offer would be undoubtedly clouded by nostalgia. My best sweeping generalization is that it&amp;rsquo;s not a bad album, but it&amp;rsquo;s dated and kind of for children, which I no longer am. I need readers, after all.&lt;/p&gt;&#xA;</description>
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index 48d719b..fc14b32 100644
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+      <h2><a href="/week-notes/33/">try my best to love you in this world we in (WN 33)</a></h2>
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-      <h2><a href="/week-notes/032/">don’t you know that I’m crazy for you? (WN32)</a></h2>
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+      <description>&lt;p&gt;This week has been &lt;em&gt;rough&lt;/em&gt;. As I wrote last week, I was out sick from work three days, so all this week I&amp;rsquo;ve been playing catch up — trying to dig myself out of the hole while also keeping head above water with everything new that&amp;rsquo;s happening&lt;sup id=&#34;fnref:1&#34;&gt;&lt;a href=&#34;#fn:1&#34; class=&#34;footnote-ref&#34; role=&#34;doc-noteref&#34;&gt;1&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/sup&gt;. The group of kids I have this year are really likeable, but they&amp;rsquo;re incredibly immature. I&amp;rsquo;m dealing with a lot of classroom management challenges, which has rarely been an issue for me&lt;sup id=&#34;fnref:2&#34;&gt;&lt;a href=&#34;#fn:2&#34; class=&#34;footnote-ref&#34; role=&#34;doc-noteref&#34;&gt;2&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/sup&gt;. I&amp;rsquo;m struggling to keep them in their seats and have a coherent lesson without interruptions. One class in particular is incredibly challenging and it&amp;rsquo;s really starting to wear on me. I love what I &lt;em&gt;do&lt;/em&gt;, in a general sense, but lately, I&amp;rsquo;m not happy to go to work. I dread the middle portion of my day in particular (tough class and then immediately into lunch duty). The highlights have been few and far between; I&amp;rsquo;m constantly disappointed in myself that I&amp;rsquo;m not doing a better job even though I know a lot of these struggles are bigger than me and my classroom. On top of that, I&amp;rsquo;ve had a bunch of not fun expenses crop up this week — a $2500 repair bill on my car, we had our septic tank pumped, and we&amp;rsquo;re trying to get a plumber in because our shower drain isn&amp;rsquo;t draining — and other adult shit&lt;sup id=&#34;fnref:3&#34;&gt;&lt;a href=&#34;#fn:3&#34; class=&#34;footnote-ref&#34; role=&#34;doc-noteref&#34;&gt;3&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/sup&gt;. All in, this week has been filled with an overwhelming number of stressors piling together.&lt;/p&gt;</description>
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       <description>&lt;h2 id=&#34;doing&#34;&gt;Doing&lt;/h2&gt;&#xA;&lt;p&gt;This was the first full week of school, so naturally that consumed most of my time. Things are going well enough so far; I have one class that&amp;rsquo;s really challenging, but the rest are smooth sailing.&lt;/p&gt;&#xA;&lt;p&gt;I saw an optometrist for the first time in my life this week; I noticed last year that I was having trouble seeing the board at the front of my classroom toward the end of the day. I thought it might just be fatigue, but Joe encouraged me to make an appointment even so considering I&amp;rsquo;ve never been. Apparently I have crossed a new threshold of old age and now need readers. I&amp;rsquo;ve insisted for years that I want glasses, that I feel they suit my face and personality, but the moment the doctor asked me &amp;ldquo;Do you want someone to help you pick out glasses today?&amp;rdquo; I was immediately confronted with my hubris and regretted all previous comments. The pair I ordered haven&amp;rsquo;t come in yet, so expect a further meltdown next week.&lt;/p&gt;</description>
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+    <time datetime="2025-09-14T00:00:00&#43;00:00">14 September 2025</time>
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+    <h1>don’t you know that I’m crazy for you? (WN32)</h1>
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+<p>This was the first full week of school, so naturally that consumed most of my time. Things are going well enough so far; I have one class that&rsquo;s really challenging, but the rest are smooth sailing.</p>
+<p>I saw an optometrist for the first time in my life this week; I noticed last year that I was having trouble seeing the board at the front of my classroom toward the end of the day. I thought it might just be fatigue, but Joe encouraged me to make an appointment even so considering I&rsquo;ve never been. Apparently I have crossed a new threshold of old age and now need readers. I&rsquo;ve insisted for years that I want glasses, that I feel they suit my face and personality, but the moment the doctor asked me &ldquo;Do you want someone to help you pick out glasses today?&rdquo; I was immediately confronted with my hubris and regretted all previous comments. The pair I ordered haven&rsquo;t come in yet, so expect a further meltdown next week.</p>
+<p>On the computer nerd front, I&rsquo;m trying out <a href="https://www.getmailspring.com/">Mailspring</a> in lieu of Thunderbird (which is great, but the interface is clunky and ugly and I am a fundamentally vain person), and I subscribed to <a href="https://obsidian.md/sync">Obsidian Sync</a> for my vaults with work notes and my (non-blog, creative, unpublishable) writing. Obsidian offers a remarkably generous educator discount (40%). I&rsquo;ve also taken my first foray into Soulseek, for which I&rsquo;m about thirty years late to the party.</p>
+<p>Joe and I had a long conversation this week about some serious shit that isn&rsquo;t really appropriate to write about my little fucking blog, but the bit I do feel comfortable sharing here is my lifelong obsession with death and dying — not in a macabre true crime bullshit way, but in a perhaps obsessive and compulsive anxiety about my impending death and the ones of those I love. He has encouraged therapy; I said I would consider it for his sake. I believe he then encouraged me to also work on my lack of self-worth in therapy, too.</p>
+<p>My volleyball rec league started back up, so I now have that and my Sunday morning runs as regular routines. I&rsquo;m running a 5K in early November and feel more than prepared, endurance-wise (the Sunday runs are five to six miles), but I&rsquo;d really like to push myself to improve on speed before it rolls around.</p>
+<h2 id="reading">Reading</h2>
+<p>I finished <em>All Boys Aren&rsquo;t Blue</em> by George M. Johnson at last. I think I need a break from young adult literature for a while — <em>Perdido Street Station</em> was next on my list, but a student teased me about never having finished <em>Villette</em>, so I&rsquo;m tempted to give it another shot.</p>
+<h2 id="watching">Watching</h2>
+<p>I&rsquo;ve kept on with <em>Downton Abbey</em> on and off; it&rsquo;s become my folding laundry show. I&rsquo;m now almost finished with the last season. It&rsquo;s remained entertaining, though I wouldn&rsquo;t consider any of it <em>good</em> in an objective sense beyond the first season. I think there are a few storylines that are completely misguided and borderline intolerable (Bates and Anna, mostly, and Prince Kuragin), but I haven&rsquo;t been compelled to <em>stop watching</em>, which indicates something — if only my low standards for what I consume whilst folding underwear.</p>
+<h2 id="listening">Listening</h2>
+<p>Plex had a data breach that meant I had to change my password and do some reauthentication that I didn&rsquo;t get around to until the weekend, so I streamed a lot of music off the Bandcamp app when away from home — primarily <em>EELS</em> by Being Dead, which I <a href="https://cassie.ink/week-notes/025/">first mentioned back in July</a> and remain a great fan of.</p>
+<p>A student of mine recommended that I listen to Tyler, The Creator, which I now feel obligated to do, though I think I know what the end result will be. He gave me three albums, and I think I&rsquo;m going to start with <em>CALL ME IF YOU GET LOST</em>. More to come on that.</p>
+<p>I also ripped a better quality version of <em>&hellip; A Better View of the Rising Moon</em> by 1997, an album I really liked when I was 12, so I&rsquo;m listening through that for the first time in probably over a decade. No detailed thoughts at the moment, and any that I could offer would be undoubtedly clouded by nostalgia. My best sweeping generalization is that it&rsquo;s not a bad album, but it&rsquo;s dated and kind of for children, which I no longer am. I need readers, after all.</p>
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+      <p>This week has been <em>rough</em>. As I wrote last week, I was out sick from work three days, so all this week I&rsquo;ve been playing catch up — trying to dig myself out of the hole while also keeping head above water with everything new that&rsquo;s happening<sup id="fnref:1"><a href="#fn:1" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">1</a></sup>. The group of kids I have this year are really likeable, but they&rsquo;re incredibly immature. I&rsquo;m dealing with a lot of classroom management challenges, which has rarely been an issue for me<sup id="fnref:2"><a href="#fn:2" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">2</a></sup>. I&rsquo;m struggling to keep them in their seats and have a coherent lesson without interruptions. One class in particular is incredibly challenging and it&rsquo;s really starting to wear on me. I love what I <em>do</em>, in a general sense, but lately, I&rsquo;m not happy to go to work. I dread the middle portion of my day in particular (tough class and then immediately into lunch duty). The highlights have been few and far between; I&rsquo;m constantly disappointed in myself that I&rsquo;m not doing a better job even though I know a lot of these struggles are bigger than me and my classroom. On top of that, I&rsquo;ve had a bunch of not fun expenses crop up this week — a $2500 repair bill on my car, we had our septic tank pumped, and we&rsquo;re trying to get a plumber in because our shower drain isn&rsquo;t draining — and other adult shit<sup id="fnref:3"><a href="#fn:3" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">3</a></sup>. All in, this week has been filled with an overwhelming number of stressors piling together.</p>
+<p>I did have a bit of a breakthrough with my college class, however. It&rsquo;s been going well for weeks now, but this week&rsquo;s class in particular felt like I was finally an authentic version of myself as a teacher (albeit to an older audience than I&rsquo;m used to) rather than trying to be the professor I took the class with (now a friend and mentor). I feel I&rsquo;ve at last released myself from lofty expectations, perfectionism and trying to squash myself into a mold and just be <em>me</em>. Of course, I still have the nagging voice that says that I&rsquo;m not good enough or doing enough, but perhaps drowning that out is the next frontier.</p>
+<p>We did creative non-fiction writing this week in the class (inspired by <em>Mango Street</em>), which is my favorite genre to write, and it has me thinking about the personal writing I&rsquo;ve done. I&rsquo;ve always considered it unpublishable and unworthy to be shared even with friends, but I simultaneously feel compelled to push myself out of that comfort zone and pursue it more seriously. It&rsquo;s fucking personal, though, and scary to submit myself to the mortifying ordeal of being known — but then again, this is my blog, and if I can&rsquo;t bring myself to publish it here, the words will forever rot and die on my hard drive,<sup id="fnref:4"><a href="#fn:4" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">4</a></sup> which feels a cruel fate to subject them to, not the least because I&rsquo;ve labored so much over them.</p>
+<p>I <a href="https://social.lol/@cass/115275010398353612">posted on Mastodon</a> that I think I&rsquo;m about to get into fountain pens. Maybe a year ago, I got a <a href="https://www.jetpens.com/Platinum-Preppy-Fountain-Pen-Black-02-Extra-Fine/pd/24020">Platinum Preppy EF</a> in a JetPens starter pack. I&rsquo;d never used a fountain pen before, and when I tried it out, I found it really unpleasant to write with and stuffed it in a desk drawer. A few months ago, though, some students who are into calligraphy and bujo came to talk to me about pens, and I pulled it out to show them — and I found I loved writing with it. It ran out of ink recently, so I decided to do a little research on fountain pens and ordered a <a href="https://www.jetpens.com/TWSBI-SWIPE-Smoke-Fountain-Pen-Extra-Fine/pd/32576">TSWBI Swipe</a>, a couple cartridges, and a syringe. It finally came in today and I found the line <em>way</em> too thick — I have small handwriting and generally use .03 gel pens. The Preppy felt good to me — a little thicker but not unreasonable — so I&rsquo;m disappointed. I&rsquo;ve only tried the Swipe on shitty copy paper so far and will give it a go on better quality stock, but I&rsquo;m thinking now of ordering a converter and bottled ink to use with the Preppy. It&rsquo;s such a complicated world to dive into, though! If there are fountain pen people out there reading this, I appreciate any guidance!</p>
+<h2 id="reading">Reading</h2>
+<p>I&rsquo;m still technically reading <em>Villette,</em> a few pages at a time; this time, it&rsquo;s less an indictment of the text and more how fucking busy I&rsquo;ve been. I&rsquo;m genuinely enjoying it (and excessively entertained by Lucy&rsquo;s homoerotic fascination with Madame Beck) and dying to go back to it, but I haven&rsquo;t been able to make time for reading this week. I&rsquo;m so exhausted by the time I get home and eat dinner that I can&rsquo;t mentally commit to reading — and forget finding time during the school day like I&rsquo;ve been able to in the past.</p>
+<h2 id="watching">Watching</h2>
+<p>I&rsquo;m still rewatching <em>Weeds</em> and my feelings are mostly unchanged: I&rsquo;m here for Nancy and Mary Louise Parker&rsquo;s performance. I&rsquo;m into the Ren-Mar season now, where Esteban is introduced and looms large; I remember this being when I started to turn on the show, so we&rsquo;ll see if I begin to wane on it.</p>
+<h2 id="playing">Playing</h2>
+<p>I bought the <em>Final Fantasy Tactics</em> remaster against my better judgement (not really — I&rsquo;d just hoped to have finished <em>Baldur&rsquo;s Gate 3</em> at this point). I was a huge fan of <em>Tactics Advance</em> as a kid and was always curious about <em>Tactics</em>, but rumors have swelled for years about a potential remaster, so I always put off playing it until the remaster dropped. I&rsquo;m only in Chapter 2, but I really love it so far; it&rsquo;s the fluid and customizable job system that I loved from <em>Tactics Advance</em>, and I&rsquo;m more interested in the story than I anticipated. I&rsquo;ve always heard that it&rsquo;s super political, which it is, but there&rsquo;s enough of a human angle in the relationship with Ramza and Delita that I find it compelling and am excited to see what happens next.</p>
+<h2 id="listening">Listening</h2>
+<p>I listened to <em>Food in the Belly</em> by Xavier Rudd because &ldquo;Messages&rdquo; was in an episode of <em>Weeds</em>. I found it mostly forgettable, aside from &ldquo;Messages.&rdquo;</p>
+<p>kitty put out a new song (<a href="https://kitty.bandcamp.com/track/cassadaga-fairy-garden">&ldquo;cassadaga fairy garden&rdquo;</a>) that I think is really cool. It feels like D&amp;B track fused with BOPPLES and Ninajirachi. I really dug <a href="https://kitty.bandcamp.com/track/international-thirst-championship">&ldquo;international thirst champion,&rdquo;</a> too, which came out earlier this year.</p>
+<p>For whatever reason, I&rsquo;m going back to Future&rsquo;s &ldquo;Red Leather&rdquo; a lot this week. I think it was in a dream I had, and it&rsquo;s been caught in my head ever since. I love a guitar in a rap song, I think (see also: Polo G&rsquo;s &ldquo;Martin &amp; Gina&rdquo; and Raury&rsquo;s &ldquo;Amor&rdquo; — the outro, at least).</p>
+<p>I&rsquo;d like to maybe start including my top ten songs every week in a kind of playlist feature here? Bandcamp launched a playlist feature<sup id="fnref:5"><a href="#fn:5" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">5</a></sup> that I could use, but it could also just be a list. Right now remote access to my Plex server is being weird and my plays haven&rsquo;t been scrobbling properly unless I&rsquo;m on my home network<sup id="fnref:6"><a href="#fn:6" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">6</a></sup>, so I&rsquo;m working off of just the Plex stats, which seem wrong. Regardless, here&rsquo;s what I have for this week.</p>
+<ol>
+<li>&ldquo;Red Leather&rdquo; by Future</li>
+<li>&ldquo;cassadaga fairy garden&rdquo; by Kitty</li>
+<li>&ldquo;Clown Blood/Orpheus&rsquo; Bobbing Head&rdquo; by Los Campesinos!</li>
+<li>&ldquo;Sickset&rdquo; by Rainbow Kitten Surprise</li>
+<li>&ldquo;She Crows (Documented Minor Emotional Breakdown #4)&rdquo; by Los Campesinos!</li>
+<li>&ldquo;Tin Man&rdquo; by feeble little horse</li>
+<li>&ldquo;Good News&rdquo; by Mac Miller</li>
+<li>&ldquo;It&rsquo;s Called: Freefall&rdquo; by Rainbow Kitten Surprise</li>
+<li>&ldquo;Cold Love&rdquo; by Rainbow Kitten Surprise</li>
+<li>&ldquo;I Love the Valley&rdquo; by Ten in the Swear Jar</li>
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+<p>I&rsquo;m mixing my metaphors here and I don&rsquo;t care&#160;<a href="#fnref:1" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p>
+</li>
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+<p>I suppose this means that I have good classroom management, but I&rsquo;ve never really thought of it that way — I am myself and do what feels natural, which has always worked for me&#160;<a href="#fnref:2" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p>
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+<p>navigating in-law relationships and private things I don&rsquo;t really want to be writing about on my little fucking blog&#160;<a href="#fnref:3" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p>
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+<p>of course I have cloud backups because I&rsquo;m not irresponsible but you get my point&#160;<a href="#fnref:4" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p>
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+<p>mobile-only for now, which is a non-starter for me, but hopefully the web editor will launch soon&#160;<a href="#fnref:5" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p>
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+<p>I&rsquo;ve contacted my ISP to hopefully try to resolve this — I&rsquo;m caught behind double NAT&#160;<a href="#fnref:6" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p>
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+    <time datetime="2025-10-05T00:00:00&#43;00:00">5 October 2025</time>
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+    <h1>try my best to love you in this world we in (WN 34)</h1>
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+      <p>This week has been <em>rough</em>. As I wrote last week, I was out sick from work three days, so all this week I&rsquo;ve been playing catch up — trying to dig myself out of the hole while also keeping head above water with everything new that&rsquo;s happening<sup id="fnref:1"><a href="#fn:1" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">1</a></sup>. The group of kids I have this year are really likeable, but they&rsquo;re incredibly immature. I&rsquo;m dealing with a lot of classroom management challenges, which has rarely been an issue for me<sup id="fnref:2"><a href="#fn:2" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">2</a></sup>. I&rsquo;m struggling to keep them in their seats and have a coherent lesson without interruptions. One class in particular is incredibly challenging and it&rsquo;s really starting to wear on me. I love what I <em>do</em>, in a general sense, but lately, I&rsquo;m not happy to go to work. I dread the middle portion of my day in particular (tough class and then immediately into lunch duty). The highlights have been few and far between; I&rsquo;m constantly disappointed in myself that I&rsquo;m not doing a better job even though I know a lot of these struggles are bigger than me and my classroom. On top of that, I&rsquo;ve had a bunch of not fun expenses crop up this week — a $2500 repair bill on my car, we had our septic tank pumped, and we&rsquo;re trying to get a plumber in because our shower drain isn&rsquo;t draining — and other adult shit<sup id="fnref:3"><a href="#fn:3" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">3</a></sup>. All in, this week has been filled with an overwhelming number of stressors piling together.</p>
+<p>I did have a bit of a breakthrough with my college class, however. It&rsquo;s been going well for weeks now, but this week&rsquo;s class in particular felt like I was finally an authentic version of myself as a teacher (albeit to an older audience than I&rsquo;m used to) rather than trying to be the professor I took the class with (now a friend and mentor). I feel I&rsquo;ve at last released myself from lofty expectations, perfectionism and trying to squash myself into a mold and just be <em>me</em>. Of course, I still have the nagging voice that says that I&rsquo;m not good enough or doing enough, but perhaps drowning that out is the next frontier.</p>
+<p>We did creative non-fiction writing this week in the class (inspired by <em>Mango Street</em>), which is my favorite genre to write, and it has me thinking about the personal writing I&rsquo;ve done. I&rsquo;ve always considered it unpublishable and unworthy to be shared even with friends, but I simultaneously feel compelled to push myself out of that comfort zone and pursue it more seriously. It&rsquo;s fucking personal, though, and scary to submit myself to the mortifying ordeal of being known — but then again, this is my blog, and if I can&rsquo;t bring myself to publish it here, the words will forever rot and die on my hard drive,<sup id="fnref:4"><a href="#fn:4" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">4</a></sup> which feels a cruel fate to subject them to, not the least because I&rsquo;ve labored so much over them.</p>
+<p>I <a href="https://social.lol/@cass/115275010398353612">posted on Mastodon</a> that I think I&rsquo;m about to get into fountain pens. Maybe a year ago, I got a <a href="https://www.jetpens.com/Platinum-Preppy-Fountain-Pen-Black-02-Extra-Fine/pd/24020">Platinum Preppy EF</a> in a JetPens starter pack. I&rsquo;d never used a fountain pen before, and when I tried it out, I found it really unpleasant to write with and stuffed it in a desk drawer. A few months ago, though, some students who are into calligraphy and bujo came to talk to me about pens, and I pulled it out to show them — and I found I loved writing with it. It ran out of ink recently, so I decided to do a little research on fountain pens and ordered a <a href="https://www.jetpens.com/TWSBI-SWIPE-Smoke-Fountain-Pen-Extra-Fine/pd/32576">TSWBI Swipe</a>, a couple cartridges, and a syringe. It finally came in today and I found the line <em>way</em> too thick — I have small handwriting and generally use .03 gel pens. The Preppy felt good to me — a little thicker but not unreasonable — so I&rsquo;m disappointed. I&rsquo;ve only tried the Swipe on shitty copy paper so far and will give it a go on better quality stock, but I&rsquo;m thinking now of ordering a converter and bottled ink to use with the Preppy. It&rsquo;s such a complicated world to dive into, though! If there are fountain pen people out there reading this, I appreciate any guidance!</p>
+<h2 id="reading">Reading</h2>
+<p>I&rsquo;m still technically reading <em>Villette,</em> a few pages at a time; this time, it&rsquo;s less an indictment of the text and more how fucking busy I&rsquo;ve been. I&rsquo;m genuinely enjoying it (and excessively entertained by Lucy&rsquo;s homoerotic fascination with Madame Beck) and dying to go back to it, but I haven&rsquo;t been able to make time for reading this week. I&rsquo;m so exhausted by the time I get home and eat dinner that I can&rsquo;t mentally commit to reading — and forget finding time during the school day like I&rsquo;ve been able to in the past.</p>
+<h2 id="watching">Watching</h2>
+<p>I&rsquo;m still rewatching <em>Weeds</em> and my feelings are mostly unchanged: I&rsquo;m here for Nancy and Mary Louise Parker&rsquo;s performance. I&rsquo;m into the Ren-Mar season now, where Esteban is introduced and looms large; I remember this being when I started to turn on the show, so we&rsquo;ll see if I begin to wane on it.</p>
+<h2 id="playing">Playing</h2>
+<p>I bought the <em>Final Fantasy Tactics</em> remaster against my better judgement (not really — I&rsquo;d just hoped to have finished <em>Baldur&rsquo;s Gate 3</em> at this point). I was a huge fan of <em>Tactics Advance</em> as a kid and was always curious about <em>Tactics</em>, but rumors have swelled for years about a potential remaster, so I always put off playing it until the remaster dropped. I&rsquo;m only in Chapter 2, but I really love it so far; it&rsquo;s the fluid and customizable job system that I loved from <em>Tactics Advance</em>, and I&rsquo;m more interested in the story than I anticipated. I&rsquo;ve always heard that it&rsquo;s super political, which it is, but there&rsquo;s enough of a human angle in the relationship with Ramza and Delita that I find it compelling and am excited to see what happens next.</p>
+<h2 id="listening">Listening</h2>
+<p>I listened to <em>Food in the Belly</em> by Xavier Rudd because &ldquo;Messages&rdquo; was in an episode of <em>Weeds</em>. I found it mostly forgettable, aside from &ldquo;Messages.&rdquo;</p>
+<p>kitty put out a new song (<a href="https://kitty.bandcamp.com/track/cassadaga-fairy-garden">&ldquo;cassadaga fairy garden&rdquo;</a>) that I think is really cool. It feels like D&amp;B track fused with BOPPLES and Ninajirachi. I really dug <a href="https://kitty.bandcamp.com/track/international-thirst-championship">&ldquo;international thirst champion,&rdquo;</a> too, which came out earlier this year.</p>
+<p>For whatever reason, I&rsquo;m going back to Future&rsquo;s &ldquo;Red Leather&rdquo; a lot this week. I think it was in a dream I had, and it&rsquo;s been caught in my head ever since. I love a guitar in a rap song, I think (see also: Polo G&rsquo;s &ldquo;Martin &amp; Gina&rdquo; and Raury&rsquo;s &ldquo;Amor&rdquo; — the outro, at least).</p>
+<p>I&rsquo;d like to maybe start including my top ten songs every week in a kind of playlist feature here? Bandcamp launched a playlist feature<sup id="fnref:5"><a href="#fn:5" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">5</a></sup> that I could use, but it could also just be a list. Right now remote access to my Plex server is being weird and my plays haven&rsquo;t been scrobbling properly unless I&rsquo;m on my home network<sup id="fnref:6"><a href="#fn:6" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">6</a></sup>, so I&rsquo;m working off of just the Plex stats, which seem wrong. Regardless, here&rsquo;s what I have for this week.</p>
+<ol>
+<li>&ldquo;Red Leather&rdquo; by Future</li>
+<li>&ldquo;cassadaga fairy garden&rdquo; by Kitty</li>
+<li>&ldquo;Clown Blood/Orpheus&rsquo; Bobbing Head&rdquo; by Los Campesinos!</li>
+<li>&ldquo;Sickset&rdquo; by Rainbow Kitten Surprise</li>
+<li>&ldquo;She Crows (Documented Minor Emotional Breakdown #4)&rdquo; by Los Campesinos!</li>
+<li>&ldquo;Tin Man&rdquo; by feeble little horse</li>
+<li>&ldquo;Good News&rdquo; by Mac Miller</li>
+<li>&ldquo;It&rsquo;s Called: Freefall&rdquo; by Rainbow Kitten Surprise</li>
+<li>&ldquo;Cold Love&rdquo; by Rainbow Kitten Surprise</li>
+<li>&ldquo;I Love the Valley&rdquo; by Ten in the Swear Jar</li>
+</ol>
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+<li id="fn:1">
+<p>I&rsquo;m mixing my metaphors here and I don&rsquo;t care&#160;<a href="#fnref:1" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p>
+</li>
+<li id="fn:2">
+<p>I suppose this means that I have good classroom management, but I&rsquo;ve never really thought of it that way — I am myself and do what feels natural, which has always worked for me&#160;<a href="#fnref:2" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p>
+</li>
+<li id="fn:3">
+<p>navigating in-law relationships and private things I don&rsquo;t really want to be writing about on my little fucking blog&#160;<a href="#fnref:3" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p>
+</li>
+<li id="fn:4">
+<p>of course I have cloud backups because I&rsquo;m not irresponsible but you get my point&#160;<a href="#fnref:4" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p>
+</li>
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+<p>mobile-only for now, which is a non-starter for me, but hopefully the web editor will launch soon&#160;<a href="#fnref:5" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p>
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+<li id="fn:6">
+<p>I&rsquo;ve contacted my ISP to hopefully try to resolve this — I&rsquo;m caught behind double NAT&#160;<a href="#fnref:6" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p>
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       <description>&lt;h2 id=&#34;doing&#34;&gt;Doing&lt;/h2&gt;&#xA;&lt;p&gt;This was the first full week of school, so naturally that consumed most of my time. Things are going well enough so far; I have one class that&amp;rsquo;s really challenging, but the rest are smooth sailing.&lt;/p&gt;&#xA;&lt;p&gt;I saw an optometrist for the first time in my life this week; I noticed last year that I was having trouble seeing the board at the front of my classroom toward the end of the day. I thought it might just be fatigue, but Joe encouraged me to make an appointment even so considering I&amp;rsquo;ve never been. Apparently I have crossed a new threshold of old age and now need readers. I&amp;rsquo;ve insisted for years that I want glasses, that I feel they suit my face and personality, but the moment the doctor asked me &amp;ldquo;Do you want someone to help you pick out glasses today?&amp;rdquo; I was immediately confronted with my hubris and regretted all previous comments. The pair I ordered haven&amp;rsquo;t come in yet, so expect a further meltdown next week.&lt;/p&gt;</description>
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