diff --git a/content/week-notes/030.md b/content/week-notes/030.md index 197480d..d7814b2 100644 --- a/content/week-notes/030.md +++ b/content/week-notes/030.md @@ -30,11 +30,13 @@ Site-wise, I'm continuing to backport content from an old blog. This week I've a ## Listening I did a *lot* of podcast listening this week! Cleaning and organizing my classroom has been a good opportunity for it because it's mostly mindless labor. I've been digging through Into the Aether's *Kingdom Hearts* episodes ([Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep | Bonus](https://pca.st/ryz2z5wd) and [I Norted Myself](https://pca.st/m4xgagit)) plus the [Song Exploder episode on "Miasma Sky."](https://pca.st/Kj2p) -I've been listening to a lot of *Pure Particles* by The Bug Club. It has some of my favorite songs of theirs ("If My Mother Thinks I'm Happy," "Pure Particles," and "A Love Song," primarily). I haven't been quite as enthused with their more recent releases — *Very Human Features* was good, and I didn't really care about *On the Intricate Inner Workings of the System*[^3] — but *Pure Particles* through *Rare Birds* is such an incredible run of quality. +I've been listening to a lot of [*Pure Particles* by The Bug Club](https://thebugclub.bandcamp.com/album/pure-particles). It has some of my favorite songs of theirs ("If My Mother Thinks I'm Happy," "Pure Particles," and "A Love Song," primarily). I haven't been quite as enthused with their more recent releases — *Very Human Features* was good, and I didn't really care about *On the Intricate Inner Workings of the System*[^3] — but *Pure Particles* through *Rare Birds* is such an incredible run of quality. As part of my mission to upgrade the low quality MP3s I have on my music server, I ordered and ripped a few CDs this week: Johnny Flynn's *A Larum*, Mirah's *C'mon Miracle*, and Freelance Whales's *Weathervanes*. I was really only looking for *A Larum* specifically, but the seller on discogs had a shipping minimum. The others were on my list and the seller happened to have them available. It's a little funny — I was listening to these albums all at a specific point in my life (specifically *C'mon Miracle* and *Weathervanes* when I was horrifically depressed in my late teens; Johnny Flynn was a bit earlier). -That nostalgia (if you can call it that — is there a nostalgia that's for *bad* memories?[^4]) brought me back to *Pullhair Rubeye* by Avey Tare & Kría Brekkan, an odd album that was released in reverse. The reversed version (so the normal one) of "Lay Lay Off, Faselam" is an all-timer for me; I was listening to it a lot in 2012. Releasing the album in reverse was, apparently, a controversial move, but I like it both ways — and I finally took the time to actually reverse it myself.[^5] +That nostalgia (if you can call it that — is there a nostalgia that's for *bad* memories?[^4]) brought me back to [*Pullhair Rubeye* by Avey Tare & Kría Brekkan](https://aveytare.bandcamp.com/album/pullhair-rubeye), an odd album that was released in reverse. The reversed version (so the normal one) of "Lay Lay Off, Faselam" is an all-timer for me; I was listening to it a lot in 2012. Releasing the album in reverse was, apparently, a controversial move, but I like it both ways — and I finally took the time to actually reverse it myself.[^5] + +Then I listened to [*Don't Let Them Begin* by Trust Fund](https://trustfund.bandcamp.com/album/dont-let-them-begin-ep) because I had "We'll Both Apologize" stuck in my head (🎶 *I'm alone in the house and I'm freaking myself out again, I'm clapping my hands and spinning my arms around* 🎶). It's good. [^1]: I've found myself referring to the students as "kids." They're juniors and seniors in college, so probably at most around ten years younger than me. I'm not sure if this is a speech pattern picked up from teaching middle schoolers, who I can safely call kids, or if I'm an old lady now. More on that later. diff --git a/public/index.xml b/public/index.xml index bb1b727..05f729f 100644 --- a/public/index.xml +++ b/public/index.xml @@ -13,7 +13,7 @@ http://localhost:1313/week-notes/30/ Mon, 25 Aug 2025 00:00:00 +0000 http://localhost:1313/week-notes/30/ - <p>First up, a small update to my week notes format: I&rsquo;m going to try to include a cover image with each post as a further homage to <em>Never Hungover Again</em> (from which I shamelessly stole the design of my site). I&rsquo;d like to make it a random picture from the week. I&rsquo;m hoping this will encourage me to take more pictures, perhaps even using the fancy camera that I paid several hundred dollars for and never touch. I took this week&rsquo;s picture in the bathroom of a winery (omitted snapchat caption: &ldquo;wasn&rsquo;t considering it but thanks for the heads up i guess&rdquo;).</p> <h2 id="doing">Doing</h2> <p>I taught my first college class! It went far better than I anticipated; by about half an hour in, I fell into my natural teacher mode and it was smooth sailing from there. I&rsquo;m excited to work with the kids<sup id="fnref:1"><a href="#fn:1" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">1</a></sup> and see how I do throughout the semester. I still have deep-seated imposter syndrome about teaching (<em>adjunct lecturing</em>) the course on a macro-level, but the day-by-day is at least seeming more feasible.</p> <p>For context, the college I&rsquo;m teaching (<em>adjunct lecturing</em><sup id="fnref:2"><a href="#fn:2" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">2</a></sup>) at is my alma mater. I transferred there as a junior from community college, and this course is the first one I took there — with a professor who went on to become a mentor and a personal friend. She scared the shit out of me then (she still does) because she is <em>so good</em> at what she does, so experienced, and (seemingly) effortlessly incredible as a teacher. The idea that I have to, in some way, fill her shoes — teach her class, in the same room I took it, nine years later — is absolutely terrifying. Who am I to tell these kids how to teach?? I have very lovely friends who have talked me up and assured me that I&rsquo;ll do a great job, but I think I&rsquo;ll never be able to shake the feeling that I&rsquo;m not doing what she would have (or not doing as good as her). Of course that&rsquo;s ridiculous and I need to be my own person, and it is within this contradiction that I must exist.</p> <p>I&rsquo;ve been to my classroom a few times this week getting some of the bigger projects done. I&rsquo;ll have time to put on finishing touches on the teacher conference days next week, but I&rsquo;d rather cut open 96 tennis balls at a relaxed pace than rush to do it the day before kids show up.</p> <p>Site-wise, I&rsquo;m continuing to backport content from an old blog. This week I&rsquo;ve added&hellip;</p> <ul> <li><a href="https://cassie.ink/an-empty-promise-to-blog-more/">An Empty Promise to Blog More</a> (06-30-2023)</li> <li><a href="https://cassie.ink/heres-what-i-was-listening-to-in-2020/">Here&rsquo;s What I was Listening to in 2020</a> (12-30-2020)</li> <li><a href="https://cassie.ink/women-in-a-sea-of-men-the-representation-of-women-in-the-curse-of-the-black-pearl/">Women in a Sea of Men: The Representation of Women in The Curse of the Black Pearl</a> (09-28-2016)</li> <li><a href="https://cassie.ink/heres-what-i-was-listening-to-in-2015">Here&rsquo;s What I Was Listening to in 2015</a> (01-07-2016)</li> <li><a href="http://cassie.ink/star-wars-has-a-problem-with-women-and-were-going-to-fix-it-together/">Star Wars Has a Problem with Women and We’re Going to Fix It Together</a> (12-14-2015)</li> </ul> <h2 id="reading">Reading</h2> <h2 id="watching">Watching</h2> <h2 id="playing">Playing</h2> <h2 id="listening">Listening</h2> <p>I did a <em>lot</em> of podcast listening this week! Cleaning and organizing my classroom has been a good opportunity for it because it&rsquo;s mostly mindless labor. I&rsquo;ve been digging through Into the Aether&rsquo;s <em>Kingdom Hearts</em> episodes (<a href="https://pca.st/ryz2z5wd">Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep | Bonus</a> and <a href="https://pca.st/m4xgagit">I Norted Myself</a>) plus the <a href="https://pca.st/Kj2p">Song Exploder episode on &ldquo;Miasma Sky.&rdquo;</a></p> <p>I&rsquo;ve been listening to a lot of <em>Pure Particles</em> by The Bug Club. It has some of my favorite songs of theirs (&ldquo;If My Mother Thinks I&rsquo;m Happy,&rdquo; &ldquo;Pure Particles,&rdquo; and &ldquo;A Love Song,&rdquo; primarily). I haven&rsquo;t been quite as enthused with their more recent releases — <em>Very Human Features</em> was good, and I didn&rsquo;t really care about <em>On the Intricate Inner Workings of the System</em><sup id="fnref:3"><a href="#fn:3" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">3</a></sup> — but <em>Pure Particles</em> through <em>Rare Birds</em> is such an incredible run of quality.</p> <p>As part of my mission to upgrade the low quality MP3s I have on my music server, I ordered and ripped a few CDs this week: Johnny Flynn&rsquo;s <em>A Larum</em>, Mirah&rsquo;s <em>C&rsquo;mon Miracle</em>, and Freelance Whales&rsquo;s <em>Weathervanes</em>. I was really only looking for <em>A Larum</em> specifically, but the seller on discogs had a shipping minimum. The others were on my list and the seller happened to have them available. It&rsquo;s a little funny — I was listening to these albums all at a specific point in my life (specifically <em>C&rsquo;mon Miracle</em> and <em>Weathervanes</em> when I was horrifically depressed in my late teens; Johnny Flynn was a bit earlier).</p> <p>That nostalgia (if you can call it that — is there a nostalgia that&rsquo;s for <em>bad</em> memories?<sup id="fnref:4"><a href="#fn:4" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">4</a></sup>) brought me back to <em>Pullhair Rubeye</em> by Avey Tare &amp; Kría Brekkan, an odd album that was released in reverse. The reversed version (so the normal one) of &ldquo;Lay Lay Off, Faselam&rdquo; is an all-timer for me; I was listening to it a lot in 2012. Releasing the album in reverse was, apparently, a controversial move, but I like it both ways — and I finally took the time to actually reverse it myself.<sup id="fnref:5"><a href="#fn:5" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">5</a></sup></p> <div class="footnotes" role="doc-endnotes"> <hr> <ol> <li id="fn:1"> <p>I&rsquo;ve found myself referring to the students as &ldquo;kids.&rdquo; They&rsquo;re juniors and seniors in college, so probably at most around ten years younger than me. I&rsquo;m not sure if this is a speech pattern picked up from teaching middle schoolers, who I can safely call kids, or if I&rsquo;m an old lady now. More on that later.&#160;<a href="#fnref:1" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p> </li> <li id="fn:2"> <p>This gag entertains me and I will continue it all semester.&#160;<a href="#fnref:2" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p> </li> <li id="fn:3"> <p>The exception is &ldquo;Have U Ever Been 2 Wales,&rdquo; which is an all-timer. I wish they had gone more in that direction for their album releases.&#160;<a href="#fnref:3" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p> </li> <li id="fn:4"> <p>I believe this is called <em>trauma</em>.&#160;<a href="#fnref:4" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p> </li> <li id="fn:5"> <p>I&rsquo;d previously been listening to a shitty 192kbps MP3 someone else did.&#160;<a href="#fnref:5" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p> </li> </ol> </div> + <p>First up, a small update to my week notes format: I&rsquo;m going to try to include a cover image with each post as a further homage to <em>Never Hungover Again</em> (from which I shamelessly stole the design of my site). I&rsquo;d like to make it a random picture from the week. I&rsquo;m hoping this will encourage me to take more pictures, perhaps even using the fancy camera that I paid several hundred dollars for and never touch. I took this week&rsquo;s picture in the bathroom of a winery (omitted snapchat caption: &ldquo;wasn&rsquo;t considering it but thanks for the heads up i guess&rdquo;).</p> <h2 id="doing">Doing</h2> <p>I taught my first college class! It went far better than I anticipated; by about half an hour in, I fell into my natural teacher mode and it was smooth sailing from there. I&rsquo;m excited to work with the kids<sup id="fnref:1"><a href="#fn:1" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">1</a></sup> and see how I do throughout the semester. I still have deep-seated imposter syndrome about teaching (<em>adjunct lecturing</em>) the course on a macro-level, but the day-by-day is at least seeming more feasible.</p> <p>For context, the college I&rsquo;m teaching (<em>adjunct lecturing</em><sup id="fnref:2"><a href="#fn:2" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">2</a></sup>) at is my alma mater. I transferred there as a junior from community college, and this course is the first one I took there — with a professor who went on to become a mentor and a personal friend. She scared the shit out of me then (she still does) because she is <em>so good</em> at what she does, so experienced, and (seemingly) effortlessly incredible as a teacher. The idea that I have to, in some way, fill her shoes — teach her class, in the same room I took it, nine years later — is absolutely terrifying. Who am I to tell these kids how to teach?? I have very lovely friends who have talked me up and assured me that I&rsquo;ll do a great job, but I think I&rsquo;ll never be able to shake the feeling that I&rsquo;m not doing what she would have (or not doing as good as her). Of course that&rsquo;s ridiculous and I need to be my own person, and it is within this contradiction that I must exist.</p> <p>I&rsquo;ve been to my classroom a few times this week getting some of the bigger projects done. I&rsquo;ll have time to put on finishing touches on the teacher conference days next week, but I&rsquo;d rather cut open 96 tennis balls at a relaxed pace than rush to do it the day before kids show up.</p> <p>Site-wise, I&rsquo;m continuing to backport content from an old blog. This week I&rsquo;ve added&hellip;</p> <ul> <li><a href="https://cassie.ink/an-empty-promise-to-blog-more/">An Empty Promise to Blog More</a> (06-30-2023)</li> <li><a href="https://cassie.ink/heres-what-i-was-listening-to-in-2020/">Here&rsquo;s What I was Listening to in 2020</a> (12-30-2020)</li> <li><a href="https://cassie.ink/women-in-a-sea-of-men-the-representation-of-women-in-the-curse-of-the-black-pearl/">Women in a Sea of Men: The Representation of Women in The Curse of the Black Pearl</a> (09-28-2016)</li> <li><a href="https://cassie.ink/heres-what-i-was-listening-to-in-2015">Here&rsquo;s What I Was Listening to in 2015</a> (01-07-2016)</li> <li><a href="http://cassie.ink/star-wars-has-a-problem-with-women-and-were-going-to-fix-it-together/">Star Wars Has a Problem with Women and We’re Going to Fix It Together</a> (12-14-2015)</li> </ul> <h2 id="reading">Reading</h2> <h2 id="watching">Watching</h2> <h2 id="playing">Playing</h2> <h2 id="listening">Listening</h2> <p>I did a <em>lot</em> of podcast listening this week! Cleaning and organizing my classroom has been a good opportunity for it because it&rsquo;s mostly mindless labor. I&rsquo;ve been digging through Into the Aether&rsquo;s <em>Kingdom Hearts</em> episodes (<a href="https://pca.st/ryz2z5wd">Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep | Bonus</a> and <a href="https://pca.st/m4xgagit">I Norted Myself</a>) plus the <a href="https://pca.st/Kj2p">Song Exploder episode on &ldquo;Miasma Sky.&rdquo;</a></p> <p>I&rsquo;ve been listening to a lot of <a href="https://thebugclub.bandcamp.com/album/pure-particles"><em>Pure Particles</em> by The Bug Club</a>. It has some of my favorite songs of theirs (&ldquo;If My Mother Thinks I&rsquo;m Happy,&rdquo; &ldquo;Pure Particles,&rdquo; and &ldquo;A Love Song,&rdquo; primarily). I haven&rsquo;t been quite as enthused with their more recent releases — <em>Very Human Features</em> was good, and I didn&rsquo;t really care about <em>On the Intricate Inner Workings of the System</em><sup id="fnref:3"><a href="#fn:3" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">3</a></sup> — but <em>Pure Particles</em> through <em>Rare Birds</em> is such an incredible run of quality.</p> <p>As part of my mission to upgrade the low quality MP3s I have on my music server, I ordered and ripped a few CDs this week: Johnny Flynn&rsquo;s <em>A Larum</em>, Mirah&rsquo;s <em>C&rsquo;mon Miracle</em>, and Freelance Whales&rsquo;s <em>Weathervanes</em>. I was really only looking for <em>A Larum</em> specifically, but the seller on discogs had a shipping minimum. The others were on my list and the seller happened to have them available. It&rsquo;s a little funny — I was listening to these albums all at a specific point in my life (specifically <em>C&rsquo;mon Miracle</em> and <em>Weathervanes</em> when I was horrifically depressed in my late teens; Johnny Flynn was a bit earlier).</p> <p>That nostalgia (if you can call it that — is there a nostalgia that&rsquo;s for <em>bad</em> memories?<sup id="fnref:4"><a href="#fn:4" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">4</a></sup>) brought me back to <a href="https://aveytare.bandcamp.com/album/pullhair-rubeye"><em>Pullhair Rubeye</em> by Avey Tare &amp; Kría Brekkan</a>, an odd album that was released in reverse. The reversed version (so the normal one) of &ldquo;Lay Lay Off, Faselam&rdquo; is an all-timer for me; I was listening to it a lot in 2012. Releasing the album in reverse was, apparently, a controversial move, but I like it both ways — and I finally took the time to actually reverse it myself.<sup id="fnref:5"><a href="#fn:5" class="footnote-ref" role="doc-noteref">5</a></sup></p> <p>Then I listened to <a href="https://trustfund.bandcamp.com/album/dont-let-them-begin-ep"><em>Don&rsquo;t Let Them Begin</em> by Trust Fund</a> because I had &ldquo;We&rsquo;ll Both Apologize&rdquo; stuck in my head (🎶 <em>I&rsquo;m alone in the house and I&rsquo;m freaking myself out again, I&rsquo;m clapping my hands and spinning my arms around</em> 🎶). It&rsquo;s good.</p> <div class="footnotes" role="doc-endnotes"> <hr> <ol> <li id="fn:1"> <p>I&rsquo;ve found myself referring to the students as &ldquo;kids.&rdquo; They&rsquo;re juniors and seniors in college, so probably at most around ten years younger than me. I&rsquo;m not sure if this is a speech pattern picked up from teaching middle schoolers, who I can safely call kids, or if I&rsquo;m an old lady now. More on that later.&#160;<a href="#fnref:1" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p> </li> <li id="fn:2"> <p>This gag entertains me and I will continue it all semester.&#160;<a href="#fnref:2" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p> </li> <li id="fn:3"> <p>The exception is &ldquo;Have U Ever Been 2 Wales,&rdquo; which is an all-timer. I wish they had gone more in that direction for their album releases.&#160;<a href="#fnref:3" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p> </li> <li id="fn:4"> <p>I believe this is called <em>trauma</em>.&#160;<a href="#fnref:4" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p> </li> <li id="fn:5"> <p>I&rsquo;d previously been listening to a shitty 192kbps MP3 someone else did.&#160;<a href="#fnref:5" class="footnote-backref" role="doc-backlink">&#x21a9;&#xfe0e;</a></p> </li> </ol> </div> You wouldn't let it eat you wholе (WN29) diff --git a/public/week-notes/30/index.html b/public/week-notes/30/index.html index 096d6af..51c27ad 100644 --- a/public/week-notes/30/index.html +++ b/public/week-notes/30/index.html @@ -79,9 +79,10 @@

Playing

Listening

I did a lot of podcast listening this week! Cleaning and organizing my classroom has been a good opportunity for it because it’s mostly mindless labor. I’ve been digging through Into the Aether’s Kingdom Hearts episodes (Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep | Bonus and I Norted Myself) plus the Song Exploder episode on “Miasma Sky.”

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I’ve been listening to a lot of Pure Particles by The Bug Club. It has some of my favorite songs of theirs (“If My Mother Thinks I’m Happy,” “Pure Particles,” and “A Love Song,” primarily). I haven’t been quite as enthused with their more recent releases — Very Human Features was good, and I didn’t really care about On the Intricate Inner Workings of the System3 — but Pure Particles through Rare Birds is such an incredible run of quality.

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I’ve been listening to a lot of Pure Particles by The Bug Club. It has some of my favorite songs of theirs (“If My Mother Thinks I’m Happy,” “Pure Particles,” and “A Love Song,” primarily). I haven’t been quite as enthused with their more recent releases — Very Human Features was good, and I didn’t really care about On the Intricate Inner Workings of the System3 — but Pure Particles through Rare Birds is such an incredible run of quality.

As part of my mission to upgrade the low quality MP3s I have on my music server, I ordered and ripped a few CDs this week: Johnny Flynn’s A Larum, Mirah’s C’mon Miracle, and Freelance Whales’s Weathervanes. I was really only looking for A Larum specifically, but the seller on discogs had a shipping minimum. The others were on my list and the seller happened to have them available. It’s a little funny — I was listening to these albums all at a specific point in my life (specifically C’mon Miracle and Weathervanes when I was horrifically depressed in my late teens; Johnny Flynn was a bit earlier).

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That nostalgia (if you can call it that — is there a nostalgia that’s for bad memories?4) brought me back to Pullhair Rubeye by Avey Tare & Kría Brekkan, an odd album that was released in reverse. The reversed version (so the normal one) of “Lay Lay Off, Faselam” is an all-timer for me; I was listening to it a lot in 2012. Releasing the album in reverse was, apparently, a controversial move, but I like it both ways — and I finally took the time to actually reverse it myself.5

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That nostalgia (if you can call it that — is there a nostalgia that’s for bad memories?4) brought me back to Pullhair Rubeye by Avey Tare & Kría Brekkan, an odd album that was released in reverse. The reversed version (so the normal one) of “Lay Lay Off, Faselam” is an all-timer for me; I was listening to it a lot in 2012. Releasing the album in reverse was, apparently, a controversial move, but I like it both ways — and I finally took the time to actually reverse it myself.5

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Then I listened to Don’t Let Them Begin by Trust Fund because I had “We’ll Both Apologize” stuck in my head (🎶 I’m alone in the house and I’m freaking myself out again, I’m clapping my hands and spinning my arms around 🎶). It’s good.