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_comic/2025-04-28.md

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+image: comic/site_comic_430.png
+title: pkm - minty rage
+---
+(this is basically what the entire thing has been leading up to: actually drawing my pokeverse ocs :D -candycane)  
+you know not explaining your lore is a dumb move right

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muse/private/dump.md

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 are in the puddles
 
 shone by the sun
+
+
+25-18-1
+
+well here i am at 1 in the morning on a school night watching yet another "how to write" video
+
+free writing 3 minutes
+
+ok so here i am in the middle of the night
+
+writing randomly in hopes something changes
+
+why am i doing this why am i doing this
+
+its not even a full 3 minutes 
+
+oh never mind the video has a 3 minute break
+
+wow im stupid lol
+
+no youre not
+
+oh great and im talking to myself again
+
+hello!
+
+hhhgggreat go away
+
+well thats rude :(
+
+yea whatever lets just do some fiction
+
+ok so the forest trees loom
+
+isnt this what you alway
+
+SHUT
+
+the forest trees towered overhead
+
+the dirt crackled underneath my cheap sneakers
+
+every step brought me closer
+
+to something
+
+but i dont know what
+
+a light in the distance
+
+who is it
+
+the woodsman
+
+of wooding
+
+(what does that even mSHUTIT)
+
+the woodsman swung with a mighty force
+
+at the towering trees
+
+though it seemed insurmountable
+
+eventually it fell to ruin
+
+i am lost in these woods
+
+
+ok that wasnt so bad
+
+gee thanks
+
+why DO you like the woods so much anyway
+
+no idea the vibe is just SO cool
+
+oh crud we hav dialouge
+
+hey dont remove my swears :/
+
+oh shush im trying to only use swears when its like a really emotional moment
+
+oh fric the video says i need to use a character from the last book i read
+
+what EVEN was that
+
+house of leav
+
+THAT BOOK IS SO CONFUSING I DO NOT UNDERSTAND A SINGLE WORD OF IT
+
+yk what lets jsut go with the last mc from the last game i played..
+
+balatro
+
+wow cant wait to write JIMB
+
+ok next game uhhh
+
+half...life 2.. hm.
+
+well seems we're writing a non-mute gordon
+
+oh joy, cant wait to see how you ruin this one
+
+HEY
+
+it doesnt need to be good
+
+ok so for the favorite character.. hm.
+
+that ones hard
+
+is it so hard
+
+novelty dicemaker, disco elysium
+
+wow crigndf
+gdf
+
+SHUT
+
+UP
+
+ok direction good i had no idea where to go with this
+
+ok strangest memory?
+
+does the dicemaker even have anything
+
+gordon is pretty obvious, bro has SO much trauma
+
+hmmmmmmmmmmm
+
+i guess being accused of being the demon by Harry
+
+err you mean Raphael Ambrosia Costau?
+
+yae whatever
+
+also i guess its in a void bc revachol is very different to the hl world
+
+ok how they would say it that doesnt seem so bad
+
+oh GREAT my FREAKIG phone reset
+
+you know you could just go off and back to bed its 1 am
+
+NO WE ARE FINISHING THIS
+
+ok... ok ok ok uhh go!
+
+"Oh, i am so sorry sir"
+
+"..."
+
+(ok fine im not just going to write Gordon as a mute)
+
+(GOOD because we need to ACTUALLY WRITE)
+
+(reWIND THE VIDEO)
+
+(ok ok calm down)
+
+"I do not mean to be rude, but we do not often see such.. out of this world armor around here."
+
+"It's the only thing keeping me from the violence of this world"
+
+"while the world is quite the miserable place, you must keep some hope alive. you need not this excessive armor to be happy"
+
+"I am fighting off a heavily armored military"
+
+"Oh dear, more? We just had the lynching happen not too long ago. It seems like everything around here is becoming more and more dreary by the day.."
+
+"At the very least, my buisness is performing well, and the bookstore owner has not gone out of buisness yet. Would you like a dice?"
+
+"That would be nice, yes."
+
+
+ok 3 minutes
+
+maybe we should show this to someone that wasnt SO bad i guess
+
+yes but trim out these weird insane ramblings to myself
+
+yea i will thanks
+
+yea it was quite a bit harder mr video guy
+
+why are you talking to someone who cant hear you
+
+well why are YOU talking to yourself
+
+im not crazy i swear
+
+yea sure bud
+
+
+ok excersize 3
+
+you misspe
+
+shuhs
+
+oh yea dont be hard on yourself thanks
+
+well maybe YOU should stop it then
+
+uh oh an opening paragraph
+
+ok well thanks we dont have to writ eit good
+
+well good because we cant
+
+this is LITERALLY WHAT HE IS TALKING ABOUT WITH INNER MONOLOUGE
+
+so SHUSH and BE NICER TO YOURSELF
+
+take over my voice?
+
+that seems kinda rude
+
+not like that i assume probably
+
+al.so thanks for the double ads YOUTUBE
+
+i dont have a story idea, yea
+
+ok free write until you get an opening paragraph?
+
+it doesnt have to be good
+it doesnt have to be good
+it doesnt have to be good
+it doesnt have to be good
+
+
+woah calm down
+
+dont let doubts stop you ok dont dont
+
+give yourself a chance
+
+ok i can probably do this
+
+just b
+
+be om your own side
+
+you hear that?
+
+yea yea sure you can do it or whatever
+
+great now lets do this maybe
+
+
+ok GO
+
+you find yourself awake, though the idea of "waking up" feels wrong to say
+
+its more like you spawned in, out of the void, out of nowhere.
+
+The room you're in is boxy, clearly filled with the memories of someone else
+
+Someone happier
+
+Someoneone happier...
+
+the glow of a computer catches your eye, drawing you closer...
+
+>Login?
+
+You hesitate, before the password pops into your head
+
+(ok hang on im not putting my real password here)
+
+(it would be funnny tho)
+
+(SHUT)
+
+Hands trembling, you type the password you should not have known in.
+
+(hang on why am i writing about this)
+
+(ok well we're out of time anyway)
+
+ok COME ON please stop trying to push the idea of youknowwhat
+
+DONTCENSORMELIKEHTAT
+
+ok cmon even if this page is hidden forever you dont want to admit it
+
+caan you please stop
+
+please
+
+we are I AM normal
+
+l.jny
+you probably shou
+
+
+ok im going to bed before my sleep deprived frickin whatever makes me more upset
+
+bye sleep well
+
+yea sure mr imaginary friend
+
+god why am i talking to myself like this
+
+
+we should watch this video again maybe to get ourself out of the writing rut
+
+..maybe
+
+goodnight :)

personal/journal.html

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 <h2>basically the "hidden" vent section ive seen the webtracker nobody looks at this page</h2>
 
 
+<article>
+        <h2>2025-04-27</h2>
+        <p>(15:44)<br>
+        do i honestly have anything to offer anyone
+        </p>
+</article>
+
 <article>
         <h2>2025-04-26</h2>
         <p>(16:35)<br>