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 <h2>basically the "hidden" vent section ive seen the webtracker nobody looks at this page</h2>
 
 
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+	<h2>2024-11-30</h2>
+	<p>I feel like I should write something less intense after that<br>
+	so I guess I'll double dip and talk about the trip..<br>
+	Honestly, it was pretty short. We didn't get to do too much..<br>
+	It was planned out so that we avoided the massive rush of<br>
+	Monday and Sunday, instead choosing the day before and after<br>
+	Thanksgiving to take advantage of the lower yield. Pretty clever,<br>
+	but again it didn't leave much time to hang out with family.<br>
+	I did get to play tennis though, which was fun until my<br>
+	cousin chased and hit me with a racket repeatedly.<br>
+	Also, we watched some movies. My mom hates <i>The princess Bride</i><br>
+	for some reason, but my uncles were clever and put it on<br>
+	before we came to the house so I got to watch some :)<br>
+	The cooking was fantastic, a lot of my family are really good<br>
+	chefs, and I'm sad we couldn't take most of it on the plane.<br>
+	Also, we tried to do some black friday shopping but ended up<br>
+	not really buying a lot. Overall, pretty alright trip.</p>
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+	<summary>2024-11-30/apology</summary>
+	<p>Today's only the 30th by technicality, it<br>
+	just hit midnight 5 minutes ago. Still, I'm leaving it<br>
+	because it looks nicer.<br>
+	<br>
+	So.<br>
+	I fucked up bad with that group.<br>
+	I'm writing my apology here in the extremely rare chance that<br>
+	one of them happens to check my site.<br>
+	Also, I've had some time to think about it, both literally<br>
+	being banned indefinitely and having very little computer<br>
+	access until just now because of thanksgiving travel.<br>
+	Maybe writing out an actual apology will help some,<br>
+	even if they never end up seeing it.<br>
+	godamnit im stalling<br>
+	<br>
+	Bench, I'm sorry for continuing to beg for help and<br>
+	not understanding the boundaries you set. I was getting<br>
+	too emotional and scared about the new stuff, but I shouldn't<br>
+	have expected you to hold my hand through it. I'll continue<br>
+	to try writing and maybe it'll go somewhere. I just need to<br>
+	give it time and stop letting my anxiety about it force me<br>
+	to push boundaries too hard. I'm sorry for mistreating you,<br>
+	and if you ever do end up letting me back I promise I will<br>
+	be a better person and actively push myself to not repeat it<br>
+	again. I'm sorry.<br>
+	<br>
+	Allistor, I'm sorry for the message spam after what happened<br>
+	Again, I was too emotional, but I should've just stepped back<br>
+	and not done it.<br>
+	<br>
+	To everyone else, I promise I will try to change and be a less<br>
+	annoying person who pushes too hard sometimes.</p>
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 	<h2>2024-11-27</h2>
 	<p>it got worse<br>