comicsite/muse/private/dump.md

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title: the dumpster fire
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25-17-2-INTRO
so way back when i was starting drawing and suffering on this just as bad as i am now i made a "dump" folder to just throw literally anything out there without worrying about organization and fuck it lets do that again it will be miserably bad and nobody will read this but it will at least be maybe more private than the journal page probably until someone notices it
and yes that is why i deliberately removed all layout on this page just to make YOU suffer and leave early

god i hope this isnt revealed dramatically in an ironic huburis esque twist of fate or something

also this is oldest-top because its a lot easier to set up my editor to jump to the bottom to add stuff


25-17-2

blackbird sing

or something

this is going to fail isnt it



so some article suggested writing about something on your desk and im going to write about the little 3d print macintosh desk thnig i have so thats from vintage computer fest southwest and that was genuinely one of the best 5 day periods of my life so i volunteered for the thing i kinda stumbled into it because i happened to be nearby and i went and it was the coolest thing ever there was so much vintage things to look at and volunteering was fun and i cannot wait for it to be that time next year

why did that feel wrong to write


yk a lot of my favorite games seem to be for completely different and conflicting reasons sometimes. like balatro is specifically /because/ of having no story, pmd is from having a really wholesome and sweet story (and the furry stuff - JOKING), Hypnospace Outlaw (and soon Dreamsettler, im sure) from the pure soul dumped into the game, and getting me into web design in the first place, even if the actual gameplay is just "heres a computer in a computer, have fun". but like the weirdest one by far is probably how absolutely in love i am with this little game called Disco ffreaking Elysium. It is ABSOLUTELY not the kind of game I would go for normally: a murder investigation? In a destroyed world? Politics???? Dr\*g use????? The /only/ reason I even tried to play it was because my friend hiyenastrike told me it was good, and it happened to be on sale (side note DO NOT BUY IT FROM STEAM THE PUBLISHERS ARE GOD AWFUL PEOPLE), and oh my GOD is it such a fantastic story and please play it. Now, I know there's a billion analysis videos out there, and rightfully so, this game is ffreaking amazing and so expertly displays humanities ability to preservere despite the odds, despite the seperations, etc etc. The world is also so incredibly fascinating, with a whole alternate history and weird mechanics like this Pale stuff thats basically destroying the world through entropy. The characters are so incredibly well done too and kim is the best character in gamign ever. The dicemaker girl is my second favorite, tho.



oh yea so i also figured out how to manipulate imagemagick to convert to a color palette without fkign with the transparancy. so the issue with -remap is that it also removes all transparancy because technically the netscape: psudo image has no transparent pixels so! i crafted this command to make it work properly:

`convert "$1" -coalesce -adaptive-resize 50% -channel A -threshold 10% -channel RGB -background "#F0F" -alpha remove -remap netscape: +remap -transparent "#F0F" -sample 200% -`

convert "$1" -coalesce -adaptive resize 50%. This simply loads in the image $1 (because this is just written as a bash function), runs -coalesce so in case its a gif it doesn't mess with it too bad for reasons i dont want to get into right now, and scales down by half. The scaling is because the dithering doesnt seem to have any options to become any bigger and i prefer the slightly chunkier dithering. you can ignore the resize if you want its more preference.

-channel A -threshold 10%. -channel restricts all commands to a certain color channel until its ran again, and here we're targetting the alpha (transparancy) channel and running threshold on it. Thresholding it makes it so anything below 10% opacity is completely transparant, and anything above is completely opaque. This is important to avoid any half-colored pixels.

-channel RGB -background "#F0F" -alpha remove. We then reset the channel setting to target the color channels (RGB), set the background to hot pink, and strip the alpha layer. We're using hot pink because its part of the netscape color pallete and so far towards the edge its unlikely to conflict. If you want a different palette, you may have to pick a different color here. This essentially makes all the previously transparant pixels pink, in order to smuggle it through -remap.

-remap netscape: +remap. This does the actual remap and dithering. Dithering is on by default, and the Floyd-Steinberg pattern gives a nice looking image in my opinion. The +remap also adjusts gifs to all use the same palette, so it saves better.

-transparent "#F0F" replaces the pink with transparancy, since it doesnt get erased by -remap

-sample 200% - just rescales it back up to 200%, and pushes it to stdout.

This took so so much researching to get working, so if you are reading this, use it or something. Also I'm using convert instead of magick here because debian is stuck on outdated packages again :P


you ever think about how like websites are entirely designed to supposed to be like a file system? Like the structure is identical of having like folders and directories and the only real magic was in rendering the html and the special index.html that made it easier to navigate. It's a more hopeful time..



25-17-3

the storm came early

but the only traces

are in the puddles

shone by the sun


25-18-1

well here i am at 1 in the morning on a school night watching yet another "how to write" video

free writing 3 minutes

ok so here i am in the middle of the night

writing randomly in hopes something changes

why am i doing this why am i doing this

its not even a full 3 minutes 

oh never mind the video has a 3 minute break

wow im stupid lol

no youre not

oh great and im talking to myself again

hello!

hhhgggreat go away

well thats rude :(

yea whatever lets just do some fiction

ok so the forest trees loom

isnt this what you alway

SHUT

the forest trees towered overhead

the dirt crackled underneath my cheap sneakers

every step brought me closer

to something

but i dont know what

a light in the distance

who is it

the woodsman

of wooding

(what does that even mSHUTIT)

the woodsman swung with a mighty force

at the towering trees

though it seemed insurmountable

eventually it fell to ruin

i am lost in these woods


ok that wasnt so bad

gee thanks

why DO you like the woods so much anyway

no idea the vibe is just SO cool

oh crud we hav dialouge

hey dont remove my swears :/

oh shush im trying to only use swears when its like a really emotional moment

oh fric the video says i need to use a character from the last book i read

what EVEN was that

house of leav

THAT BOOK IS SO CONFUSING I DO NOT UNDERSTAND A SINGLE WORD OF IT

yk what lets jsut go with the last mc from the last game i played..

balatro

wow cant wait to write JIMB

ok next game uhhh

half...life 2.. hm.

well seems we're writing a non-mute gordon

oh joy, cant wait to see how you ruin this one

HEY

it doesnt need to be good

ok so for the favorite character.. hm.

that ones hard

is it so hard

novelty dicemaker, disco elysium

wow crigndf
gdf

SHUT

UP

ok direction good i had no idea where to go with this

ok strangest memory?

does the dicemaker even have anything

gordon is pretty obvious, bro has SO much trauma

hmmmmmmmmmmm

i guess being accused of being the demon by Harry

err you mean Raphael Ambrosia Costau?

yae whatever

also i guess its in a void bc revachol is very different to the hl world

ok how they would say it that doesnt seem so bad

oh GREAT my FREAKIG phone reset

you know you could just go off and back to bed its 1 am

NO WE ARE FINISHING THIS

ok... ok ok ok uhh go!

"Oh, i am so sorry sir"

"..."

(ok fine im not just going to write Gordon as a mute)

(GOOD because we need to ACTUALLY WRITE)

(reWIND THE VIDEO)

(ok ok calm down)

"I do not mean to be rude, but we do not often see such.. out of this world armor around here."

"It's the only thing keeping me from the violence of this world"

"while the world is quite the miserable place, you must keep some hope alive. you need not this excessive armor to be happy"

"I am fighting off a heavily armored military"

"Oh dear, more? We just had the lynching happen not too long ago. It seems like everything around here is becoming more and more dreary by the day.."

"At the very least, my buisness is performing well, and the bookstore owner has not gone out of buisness yet. Would you like a dice?"

"That would be nice, yes."


ok 3 minutes

maybe we should show this to someone that wasnt SO bad i guess

yes but trim out these weird insane ramblings to myself

yea i will thanks

yea it was quite a bit harder mr video guy

why are you talking to someone who cant hear you

well why are YOU talking to yourself

im not crazy i swear

yea sure bud


ok excersize 3

you misspe

shuhs

oh yea dont be hard on yourself thanks

well maybe YOU should stop it then

uh oh an opening paragraph

ok well thanks we dont have to writ eit good

well good because we cant

this is LITERALLY WHAT HE IS TALKING ABOUT WITH INNER MONOLOUGE

so SHUSH and BE NICER TO YOURSELF

take over my voice?

that seems kinda rude

not like that i assume probably

al.so thanks for the double ads YOUTUBE

i dont have a story idea, yea

ok free write until you get an opening paragraph?

it doesnt have to be good
it doesnt have to be good
it doesnt have to be good
it doesnt have to be good


woah calm down

dont let doubts stop you ok dont dont

give yourself a chance

ok i can probably do this

just b

be om your own side

you hear that?

yea yea sure you can do it or whatever

great now lets do this maybe


ok GO

you find yourself awake, though the idea of "waking up" feels wrong to say

its more like you spawned in, out of the void, out of nowhere.

The room you're in is boxy, clearly filled with the memories of someone else

Someone happier

Someoneone happier...

the glow of a computer catches your eye, drawing you closer...

>Login?

You hesitate, before the password pops into your head

(ok hang on im not putting my real password here)

(it would be funnny tho)

(SHUT)

Hands trembling, you type the password you should not have known in.

(hang on why am i writing about this)

(ok well we're out of time anyway)

ok COME ON please stop trying to push the idea of youknowwhat

DONTCENSORMELIKEHTAT

ok cmon even if this page is hidden forever you dont want to admit it

caan you please stop

please

we are I AM normal

l.jny
you probably shou


ok im going to bed before my sleep deprived frickin whatever makes me more upset

bye sleep well

yea sure mr imaginary friend

god why am i talking to myself like this


we should watch this video again maybe to get ourself out of the writing rut

..maybe

goodnight :)