muchofmyadulthoodfeelslikei've been catching up with things other folks figured out about themselves in their teens and early 20s. i don'tmindthough,i'm simply happy i'mfiguringthesethingsoutaboutmyself.ifindthatknowledgeandunderstandingofmyselfusuallycomesthroughknowledgeandunderstandingofotherpeople,asmostofmylifei'venotreallysocializedwithanyonethatiwouldsayreallyunderstandsme.
idon't mean this in a "no one gets me" kind of way. genuinely i feel misunderstood until i'vebeguntoseekoutcommunitiesandpeoplethatseethingsandfeelaboutthings,insimilarwaystome.iknow,shockingi'm sure. emma'slearnedshehastosurroundherselfwithpeoplewhogetherifshewantstofeelunderstood,you'dbesurpisedhowfaronecangoinlifewithoutlearningthis.
ihaveacat,namedbaxter.maybeyou've seen his homepages, maybe you'veseenmegushabouthiminthe32bitcafediscordserver.whateverthecase,itmustbesaidthatilovemycatsomuch.himandihavebeenthroughalottogether,andwelookoutforeachotherasanyhumanandpetthathasformedabondwould.heknowsmewellandiknowhimwell.webothdon't like loud noises, nor do either of us really like dogs barking. we both look forward to meals, though i think he has a better appetite than i do most of the time. he knows the value of relaxing, something i'veonlylearnedrecently.ihopetoonedaymasterhisunderstandingofbeingpresent,andbeinginthemoment.throughoutmylifei'vehadsomewonderfulpetsthathaveallowedmetolearnjustasmuchaboutmyselfasididthem.frombirds,toarabbit,towonderfuldogs.youmightliketoreadmoreaboutmylifewithanimals<ahref="../life/pets.php"target="_blank">here</a>.
musichasbeenabigpartofmylife,bothplayingandlisteningtoit.thecreativeprocessofmakingmusicandthediscoveryofnewmusictolistentoisahealingprocessinitselfthathashelpedmethroughmuchofmylife.mytasteshaveshiftedgreatlyasi've grown, and i'vecometolovemusicineveroncethoughtiwouldasanangstyyoungteenager.youcanreadmoreaboutmusicandmyrelationshipwithit<ahref="../life/music.php"target="_blank">here</a>.</p>
intermsofotherarts,i'm most drawn to photography, and was quite into it as a teenager. i had a 35mm slr as during the time film was still easy to get developed at a store and film slr cameras were very cheap 2nd hand. i would really like to revisit this hobby, in particular due to a new found interest in birding. i'dverymuchliketocapturephotosofallthefunbirdsthatstopbyduringthedayforaquicksnack.i'dalsoliketoreturntotakingphotosofmymostfavoritesubject,flowers.flowersarequitebeautiful,andthehighresolutionofdigitalphotographymakesforstunningimages.youcanreadmoreaboutmyhistorywithphotographyandhowiwanttopursueitfurther<ahref="../life/photography.php"target="_blank">here</a>.
anearlyloveofminewascomputersandtechnologyingeneral.ihavefondmemoriesoflookingatcircuitboardsandimagininglittlecitiesfullofstreetsandbuildingsallconnectedworkingtogether.computersandtechnologyfedanearlydevelopedneedtoalwaysknowmoreandtogofurtherwithunderstanding.therewasalwayssomethingnewtolearninawidevarietyoftopics.ieventuallypursuedadegreeintechandworkedformanyyearsintechsupport,eventuallypartingwayswithfulltimeworkattheadviceofadoctor.istillfindafondnessfortech,andamcurrentlylearningjavascriptasi've always loved the puzzle solving programming offers. if you'dliketolearnmoreaboutmyrelationsipwithtechnologythroughoutmylife,youcandoso<ahref="../life/technology.php"target="_blank">here</a>.
ithinkthat's enough about me, i hope you'vetakenalookatthoselinkssprinkledthroughoutormaybesavedthemforlater.ifyouwouldn't mind, i'dliketoknowmoreaboutyou!ifyou'reupforit,youcansigntheguestbookorsendmeanemail,bothlocated<ahref="../guestbook/index.php"target="_blank">here</a>.