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| Date | Location |
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| 2025-02-11 21:29 | /shoegazing |
gazing at my (thoughts) shoes
there's a really wonderful genre of music i've held very close to my heart since i first became aware of it. it is the music genre of shoegaze. a band popular for the shoegaze "sound" is My Bloody Valentine. lately i've found myself listening to the band Ride though. Ride in particular for a certain reason, but i want to talk about shoegaze as a whole for a moment
shoegaze is such wonderful absolute noise. my mind is often quire full of noise. useless thoughts to toss and turn and worry over. do you know what turns off the noise in my head completely every time? blasting reverb and delay drenched walls of sound through my ears at slightly unsafe sound levels (i already have tinnitus, save your motherly concerns for your local teenage youth). anyways, since i've found shoegaze, i found the one thing that can truly turn my fucking loud ass brain off for as long as i can listen to the music
i've revisited Ride in particular, because i had not listened to them since before my last relationship. by revisiting Ride, i revisited a version of myself i loved. she was so confident in herself, so full of love for everything and everyone. i'm a shadow of that woman, but i want to get back to being that woman, so much
it is tough being so fucking sad all the time, i wish i could turn it off. so every so often i blast shoegaze through my head so i can turn sad off for awhile. i have dealt with so much shit over the past 6 years i think i deserve a little escapism, i think that's allowed at this point
shoegaze is a wonderful genre, a very healing one for me personally, because it is surrounded by so many good memories, and none that were really bad. i will be okay with time, i've got this